For those that don't know, PCOS is an endochrine disease (like diabetes).  It stands for Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, named after the cysts that are constantly on your ovaries.  It means several of my hormones are 'out of whack' such as too much testosterone, blood sugar levels dancing around, and other things that I can't think of at the moment.  Other symtoms include acne, weight gain in the middle, facial hair, and a high probability of never having kids.

Currently, though, I feel like it's 'winning' on me.  I become an easy target for infections like cysts, absess and ear infections.  An example would be this:  I was on an antibiotic for an absess that was tucked in the crook of my leg.  They're verry anoying things making it hard to move about because you don't want to bump or rub it.  I also had a choir concert that Monday.  I went to the rehersal on Sunday, then concert on monday.  By the end of the concert I had a full blown ear infection.  The swelling had spread down my neck, along my jaw, along my cheekbone and up my temple.  I had to visit the clinic 3 times and had my antibiotic switched, two kinds of ear drops (one needed to be taken every 4 hours, night or day), and a steriod to get the swelling down.  It hsould have been dealt with by the end of that week, but I was getting fevers to boot.  It took me a whole two weeks because my blood sugar levels were rather high, even though I was (and still am) on metformin.

Today I woke up with another lump.  Either a cyst or an absess, I don't know. It's extreemly deep inside so it's not something that will easilly pop either.  I don't have the money to visit again and I'm just plain hoping it'll get absorbed back into my body.  If it doesn't, it will have to be cut open or grow large enough to push through THAT much flesh. ….. excuse me while I shudder…..

In the mean time, my work takes the hit for when I'm sick, and if I don't work, I don't get paid and can't pay for visiting the clinic.  I just recovered fromt he earlier senario two weeks ago.  I can't afford staying home sick again, but these thigs are ferocious if I do't take care of myself.

I'm just so tired.