I would’t say I am out of the woods completely .. yet
but as the days have gone and passed living with my friend..
I call anxiety.. is a love and hate relationship really..
anxiety is that special kinda friend that I have come
to respect .. i know most of you will say, are you NUTS!? but
no , see before anxiety I always ranway from my problems, looked
elsewhere for love and acceptance, lied to myself so much, lived
in a fantasy world where everything was perfect and if anxiety hadn’t come I really do not think I will be here typing this blog to
share with you, and hope it helps someone out there.
Anxiety has forced me to realize there is something terribly wrong. But as you figured I kept
running away, but the worst it got. I had to come to terms that
running away was impossible because i would be running away from myself… abandoning myself…… anxiety made me see that people can help you but at the end it had to be me to fix myself.. only we know how to navigate the corridors of our hearts really.
I am not going to say it was easy.. nope it was the hardest thing I have ever done to face my fears face to face .. I am not going to deny I still have trouble with this but I am not baking down.. I try not to fight with anxiety or be mad at it.. because that means i fight and be mad at myself.
I simply accept it.. and let it be, have it’s space to vent and all it wants haha
and i continue my walk outside enjoying the fresh air, this has worked
for me, at the beginning it was messy and felt like hell but the more
i practiced this, it really has made a difference.
This is not everything to my story I will keep posting blogs in the future
about all that i have come to learn and experiences in my life, each day i will
try to post . For now one of my advice..
LOVE YOURSELF WITH ALL OF YOUR FLAWS,
EVEN IF ONE OF THOSE FLAWS IS ANXIETY IN ALL IT’S BROAD
FORMS, DEPRESSION, OCD, ADDICTIONS.
the image below beautiful but I do not own credits to the original creater
I know what you mean. Although I certainly do not enjoy it and it can make life really hard sometimes I have also learned and grown into who I am because of my OCD.