This is likely my last blog.  I am not bowing out because I am frustrated with the site, or anything like that.  This is about me, where I am at, and where I think I need to go, right now.  I have tried, and I have gone round after round, exhausted and beaten down.  I don’t think I have any fight left.  I don’t intend to go back to heroin, but I don’t feel like there is much else to turn to at the moment.  I have been so manic and so alone – my mind is betraying me at a rate I cannot tolerate.  I guess, all takes is one bad day, at the wrong time in your life, and everything starts to feel undone.  I doubt many people take me seriously, anymore.  I can barely take myself seriously, anymore, and I rarely do. 

I am immobile, helpless, and useless.  I can’t even seem to throw myself into my photography or my sketches.  And, I haven’t been able to write in ages – that alone is enough to drive a writer to madness.  I serve no purpose except to annoy and drain others of their time and energy.  I am grateful to those here who have helped me – you are good people, and I wish you all the best.  I hope you all find what you’re looking for.

And, I am sorry if I have disappointed anyone (especially Ace).  None of you deserved that. 

All apologies, and goodbye…

– Kit