Been away for a few months. I am surprised there are so few blogs! I am doing ok. Boyfriend doesn't seem to be getting the message that I want to break up. I sat down with him twice before trying to and I gave in. He would make a great friend, but not a life partner…….I have to get that through his head and I am sorry if it hurts him. I am in almost constant pain when I am with him….it just doesn't feel right. Being just friends didn't work once before. I don't know if I will feel like or enjoy dating. I discovered that I much prefer things starting slowly and if a guy is too forward next time, I hope I slap him!!!

Having my usual angst over mowing my lawn today….that's the issue of the day. I need a shower and can mow the lawn before that. I will probably feel accomplished when it is done. I just hat the process….and it looks really hot and humid out there. I also have a messy kitchen to clean, and a living room to pick up. I need to get my dining room ready for my friend who is going to visit and stay over a few nights, and I MUST get my clean clothing off the floor of my bedroom. The good news is that some of it is going to charity and that may make it easier. I have some XL things that are too big….actually all of them are as I am now either a Med or a Lg. I have gone from 180lbs to 150 pounds in a few months and am going to try to lose 20 more….hoping it comes off my stomach and not my chest, lol!!

My work day starts at 4AM tomorrow morning. There is a new task I am supposed to do, but I really hope it doesn't start tomorrow. I did a little bit of it before and I found it was confusing, was slow at it, and it gave me a horrid back ache. i am going to need to use a cart or something to put the boxes on as I take things out of them, instead of working off the floor and reaching up over and over again.

So because the day starts at 4AM, I want to get up at 2:30AM which means I should go to bed at 6PM. It is already 1PM/ I would like to take my Daughter to my parents house today. She has been wanting to go visit she says….but her sleep schedule is so off….I don't know if she will wake up in time.

I MUST make a list put a time next to each item and maybe even schedule some TV too….make it a reasonable list, instead of just putting down all tasks completed in each area……if i just do part of each room, I would be a little happy at least….it is the fact that there are certain rooms where i do absolutely nothing that really bothers me. I thought with my Mom over yesterday i would get things done as I had company, but it feel rude to ignore her to clean and I can't do it and talk with her at the same time that easily, so that didn't work. It was good to talk though….but we did run out a things to say after a while while my Dad was still fixing my mower. I got really sleepy and wanted to nap, I should have had some coffee.

Well, I think it is at least time to make that list. First thing on it will be to take meds…..by writing something easy on there I get encouraged by crossing it off.

Have a good day!

Heather