Well hi there. I’ve just joined up to this site just now and hopefully it can help me out in some way: Make some friends and whatnot. I also go to an Aussie site for depression too but at least here I can let out my feelings (hopefully) and not be told off for it, like on that other site.

I’ve had signs of depression since I was 11 but was first diagnosed at 16. I’ve been on medication for it since I was 18 (I’m 26 now) so I am pretty used to it. Seems a bit bleak really, like it’s always going to be there. My most troubling symptom would be what my pdoc calls “impulsive aggression”, but I only get little bursts of it now and again. I used to get it hardcore before I was on the medication and during breaks in medication (whilst weaning off one medication to go onto another) it seems to come back. I can seem like a pretty angry person sometimes which would explain why I have no friends in real life. Sad but true. Its a lonely life, as some of you no doubt have experienced.

I hope this site isn’t just another one of those annoying ones with all the teenage angsty gothy bullshit with all the whining attention-seekers. I hope this site is for legitimate people with legitimate depression. If there’s something I hate the most, it would be melodramatic teenage brats crying out for attention and the “I’m going to cut myself, give me attention” bullshit. I want nothing to do with that.

So yeah, not a good intro but hey, that’s me and I haven’t got anything to hide. Oh one more thing: I haven’t had something dramatic happen in my life to get depression like a lot of people have. I was just a lucky bastard who inherited it from my relatives. Born in the wrong place at the wrong time, pretty much. No my parents didn’t abuse me. No I wasn’t raped as a kid. No I didn’t go through any kind of traumatic experience. I’m just genetically fucked. I hope you don’t mind my swearing, but it’s just what comes out when I type.

Anyway, that’s me. If you are bored, keep reading this journal, but I daresay anyone will (that could be a good thing).

— KazzaX