I have some great news to share! I have told a couple people about this already and it's fabulous news to hear! 

Friday I had my therapist appt and everything went very well. I haven't had a panic attack for about a week or so now. Sometimes I will have a little anxiety but I am able to control it.

When I was filling out my progression paper, it asks questions on how you're doing compared to the first paper I took a month ago.  I am not severely depressed anymore! Yay! I am only moderate, which is awesome because that means that I am getting better! I am super excited~

The best thing is, is since I have been getting help with my therapist I was finally able to let go of my grandparents and finally accept that their gone. A weight has been lifted and it feels so great!   I know that I will have my sad times although I will be able to deal with it on my own.

The next hurdle that I have to get over is the work issue. The reason that I had to quit work, is because I was over achieving and I was using work as a negative security blanket to hide my feelings and the mourning of my grandparents for a year. I am scared to go back to work because I still feel and use work as a security blanket. Not so much that I will, but it's the feelins of failure and taking two steps back if I start working again. So he's going to help me conquer that and give me some more confidence that way when I do go back to work, I will treat work as I used to. Go to work, go home. That's that. It was so hard when I was working from home as a customer service agent because I was in the other room the entire time and it was split shifts and it pretty much made me feel that I was working 24/7. But you know what, that's the past and I am ready to start my life again. And it feels great.

Other than that, I had a casual weekend. I have been eating alot better than I have and have been getting the exercise. I am not taking prozac or the celexa anymore. My Dr and therapist decided that it's not the best so I have been dealing with some of the effects of not taking the medication but so far so good.

Thank you for reading and I will keep an update, but I can tell you that I feel good about myself and I wish everyone on here the best!!! Truly!