(Warning, this is gonna be all over the place.)
Y’all know I don’t sugarcoat things often. I’m just emotionally and physically tired. I know a lot of my “friends” on here are probably gonna be like “no, don’t do it, what about varsity volleyball?” truth be told, I don’t really care about volleyball. Yeah, I like playing it but I only play it because I needed to beat my sister at something. Which brings me to my family. I’m not gonna go in deeper, but one word. Toxic. I’m pressured to be perfect all the time and it’s sickening. This quarantine has brought me to an all time low, I have mental breakdowns almost every day and it sucks and I want everything to stop. I came to this site for help, but it’s not helping so far. I just want everything to stop. It’s ironic actually, I’m always the one who talks people out of suicide, but I have a hard time talking myself out of it. I feel as if I’m gonna hurt myself badly. We’ll see.
See ya on the other side,