Sooooo….. Apparently there’s a rumor going around that me and my boyfriend aren’t together anymore. This doesn’t really sound like a big deal, but my closest friend told me, and I have a feeling it’s from this one girl who’s been all over him. The worst of it is, last girl who she started a rumor about was labeled as a Slut, whore, and someone who messes around with guys. I don’t wanna be known as that girl.

I don’t know if I’m sounding concieted or anything by this next statement, but a lot of guys like me. I hate it. Apparently, you can’t be nice to people without them starting to like you. Let’s count:

1) Dude who graduated already admitted to liking me and he thought I wasn’t with my bf anymore and he asked me out.

2) Dude in my chem class likes me after another girl turned him down ’cause he’s kinda creepy but still a nice guy.

3) Stalker-Boy likes me.

4) My friends knows this one guy who likes me but they won’t tell me who ’cause I know him.

5) Dude in my theater class likes me.

6) Dude back in California still likes me.

6. Just off the top of my head. Then of course my parents think I’m absoultely in love with my best guy friend and his parents think the same ’cause we hang out a lot. He’s my friend. I…. Gah, thinking of him as anything more sends chills down my spine. And the dude in chem isn’t a problem so much as it is the two people trying to get us hooked up. J. keeps asking if me and my bf… er… "layed the goose egg yet" (I quote from him) and T. keeps telling me to break up with my bf to go out with him….. High school’s weird. It’s a crime to be abstinent and if you’re not a virgin after 2 months of dating you’re a freak.

I don’t know if what I have for my boyfriend is true love, but I feel like it is. I love him. I really do. It’s been 2 years since we’ve been going out, and he’s amazing. He’s so sweet, he respects me, and he always listens to what I say. He also makes me feel…. y’know, better looking than I feel… He makes me feel pretty with me just being myself.  No make up, no made-up hair, never wearing a skirt or dress… Natural beauty =)

I’m sick of people telling me I shouldn’t go out with Michael ’cause there’s other people I need to see. I love him, and I wanna keep going…. Why is it so hard for people to see that?