interersting morning…. on the way to work I wittnessed a suicide attempt. This man was sitting on a pillar on the edge of a highway bridge. The police were starting to block off the highway on both sides. there were more then 10 police cars…..a fire truck on both sides of the highway.i dont know if he jumped illfind out on the news later.the police waved me on thru the slow traffic as i passed up the scene all i could think of people probably saying how stupid he was and cursing him. as i passed up the scene the tears started flowing and i could not help to realize that i am where he is right now and i know how much it hurts when you want to die so bad and not care anymore. all you want is the pain to stop you dont want to die,,,,,anything to stop feeling like your stuck in the same circle. i dont know about this depression anymore…i have a therapy appointment today and i was suppose to find a physciatrist to get meds but the one my therapist referred me to didnt answer. not even a call back message…..i cantsay tht i have never attempted suicidebut when you do your anger takes over because you are so angrythat you cantfight it anymore everything goes numb and the most darkest feeling you willever have comes over you….and the most terrible thoughts come in your mind….its not a happy place to be…i ve stopped myself and from letting it get further then that……but im afraid if i hit bottom again i wont be so lucky. i promised my friend i wouldnt hurt myself but turn myself into a hopsital if i feel bad enough again instead. the guy wasabout 60 ft away from my car this morning as i drove by….i wish i cud of gotten down and talked to him…i dont know what i would of told him but tell him i know his pain and i feelhis sadness…….i feel sad for the guy is that normal? i dont even know him….