Hi umm so not sure what to post but yeah I started college a few days ago and I was pretty excited to meet new people and to have a fresh start. Cos my school experience wasn\’t so great. I dealt with depression at a very young age. I find it very hard to socialize with people. But still I try my best and yet I feel so lost. I try to be nice with everyone but idk I feel like they hate me. They don\’t want to talk to me. Sometimes I feel like my presence is bothering them, so I just leave. No one has ever come and talked to me. I go first, not that I mind but why doesn\’t anyone like talking to me. Sometimes I feel so so alone seeing everyone having a good time with their friends. But I kinda got used to being alone all the time at school so I somehow made it till I was out of school. I had a lot of expectations for college… getting new real friends and having fun, but it\’s all the same now. I feel like I can talk with a few people in my class but I still don\’t have that one constant friend. Everyone has seem to have gotten theirs at the first day itself. I might have some to talk to but at the end of the day I\’m alone. My dad got surprised when he came to pick me up cos everyone were in groups and I stood there alone. I try my level best to interact with everyone but I\’m so tired of being rejected like this that I don\’t even feel like trying. I don\’t like or want to be alone like this. I don\’t know what\’s my problem, am I that bad.

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  1. praxis 2 years ago

    You’re not alone.
    My whole college experience was the same.
    I tried coping with the loneliness and my perceived inability to be liked or asked to join anything by hitting fitness hard.
    I got so into shape people flocked to me for all the wrong reasons. It’s never changed for me no matter how hard I’ve tried to make friend so now I’m just learning to accept and love myself. It’s a journey. It’s not easy.
    There’s days when I ask myself “what’s wrong with me? Am I that unlikeable?” Honestly…I don’t know. I think I’m just too introverted and people don’t like that.

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      nutellabk 2 years ago

      thank you so much for taking your time to read and for replying. i’m so sorry you had to go through all that. better days are yet to come. i just had a whole breakdown today and it wasn’t good. plus the only person who actually cared about my existence is going to transfer to another college. and idk what to do. you know i tried a lot to talk to people but they just don’t give me the same energy. they don’t even care to say hi in the hallways. i feel like something is so wrong with me that people doesn’t like, but idk what it is yet. being an introvert it’s a big task for me to talk like this. and people just ignoring it makes it a lot worse.

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