I never thought I would be free of him. I had settled in like a rainy night. I just have up. I told myself “this is your life, you will never escape it…..escape him”. I was married to a Narcissist and not just a Narcissist a grade A Narc. The worst of the worst. Abisive (emotionally and eventually physically)
Let me give a back story. I got married really young, too young to be honest. I became a mom too young as well. I was 19, still a child myself. Although you couldn’t tell me that then. Thought I knew it all, but ohh the world taught me different . Anyway, I got married, had babies, end up quitting college and start working. I was/am a great mom. My children are my world. They are such a blessing. I actually stayed in my marriage for my children. I thought at the time it was the best thing. I think most parents do. It’s Not! They hear and see all and it does effect them.
Anyway, just when I thought my life could not get worse…it did. I was diagnosed with a chronic illness that caused another chronic illness that left me bed ridden for some time. I was totally dependent on the Narcissist . At his mercy and trust me he took full advantage. That’s when things went from bad to worse. I was in hell. I knew I would die in that house.
Long story short, I didn’t. Just when I gave up home. She found me. I found my love in a hopeless place. In a state of complete depression. She found me.
Depression is real. Anxiety is real. I know people like to say get over it but Thats Not how it works. She understood that.
I’ll leave it here for now but I’ll definitely share my stories.
- Thanks for listening😊