I don’t know how to keep going and I don’t know if I can anymore. I have nothing to live for. I feel like so empty inside. I feel sick everyday, I sleep all the time, I can barely get through my classes. I’m bot doing well in half of my classes. I don’t even want to be in college. I hate it here so much but I can’t drop out because I won’t go anywhere in life if I don’t have a degree. My mom and my sister don’t understand how I feel at all but they expect me to listen to them. Half the time they just blame me for the way I am. They tell me that my life is just going to be bad but I just have to deal with it. Why would I put up with living a terrible life when I could just kill myself? I don’t even have anyone that I could possibly talk to about this stuff because I have no friends. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t know why I’m so out of place everywhere I go. I feel so lonely every second of the day. I haven’t hugged anyone in years. I want to kill myself, I just want it to be fast, easy, and painless.
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I’m sorry you’ve been been feeling so terrible suicide feels like the best option, and that no one in your life seems to understand right now. I know that you can find people who understand what it’s like to feel the same things you do. You’re not alone. I know you feel you don’t have anything to live for right now because life feels so empty, sick, and hopeless, but I know you can have a brilliant future. I think a first good step would be talking to a therapist and trying to grow a circle of friends. If you have an interest joining a club might be an easy way of doing that. Or starting a study group to improve in some of you classes. You don’t need a degree to be successful, though you may need one depending on what you want to do with your life. I mean a good example is plumbing, many plumbers can get some 72$ an hour which is a trade school job.
Hi there.
I can’t begin to imagine what you are going through right now. I can see how you would feel so overwhelmed with loneliness. It sounds like you have a lot of pressure on your plate with no one around you truly understanding where you are coming from. It is truly courageous of you to make this post on this platform, and on here we want to make this a place of inclusivity where you don’t feel alone. I am so sorry that you are in so much pain, but just know you matter.