Hi, guys, I wanna thank everyone you wished me a happy birthday. However, I don't like thinking about it; on my sixteenth birthday, i felt terrible. I didn't have school that day and my parents had to go to work so I stayed home w/ my younger sister. We didn't really do anything & because of this anxiety I'd maintained, I cried a few times during the day and everything felt so wrong and weird and not OK! You guys have no idea how bad I feel about this. My sixteenth birthday was supposed to be a really great memory for me (SIXTEEN!) and I feel like it was wasted, ruined! Don't get me wrong, I had fun at Dorny Park and family came over for my bday/ memorial day BBQ, but the whole time I really didn't feel like my normal self. I still dont:( At school I feel better, but when I come home I don't feel good cuz everything/everyone at home doesn't make me feel relaxed; it has the opposite effect. I don't feel at home I just feel really off. I feel like tht time that I felt this way a while ago somehow took a toll on me. I just thought about it, got scared it would take its toll on me again, and it did. I know its all in my head, but it's so tough. I don't know how to deal w/ it. I guess I'm gonna get a therapist, but to conclude, I don't wanna think about my sixteenth birthday. Dorny Park was great and memorial day was too, but the literal day I turned sixteen? I don't want 2 remember tht. Again, sorry this is long but, until i get a therapist, this is where I'm gonna vent most of the time. Thank you 4 reading