Hi, guys, I wanna thank everyone you wished me a happy birthday. However, I don't like thinking about it; on my sixteenth birthday, i felt terrible. I didn't have school that day and my parents had to go to work so I stayed home w/ my younger sister. We didn't really do anything & because of this anxiety I'd maintained, I cried a few times during the day and everything felt so wrong and weird and not OK! You guys have no idea how bad I feel about this. My sixteenth birthday was supposed to be a really great memory for me (SIXTEEN!) and I feel like it was wasted, ruined! Don't get me wrong, I had fun at Dorny Park and family came over for my bday/ memorial day BBQ, but the whole time I really didn't feel like my normal self. I still dont:( At school I feel better, but when I come home I don't feel good cuz everything/everyone at home doesn't make me feel relaxed; it has the opposite effect. I don't feel at home I just feel really off. I feel like tht time that I felt this way a while ago somehow took a toll on me. I just thought about it, got scared it would take its toll on me again, and it did. I know its all in my head, but it's so tough. I don't know how to deal w/ it. I guess I'm gonna get a therapist, but to conclude, I don't wanna think about my sixteenth birthday. Dorny Park was great and memorial day was too, but the literal day I turned sixteen? I don't want 2 remember tht. Again, sorry this is long but, until i get a therapist, this is where I'm gonna vent most of the time. Thank you 4 reading

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  1. triggered 9 years ago

    I think it should have been a big deal. Ever watch the movie Sixteen Candles? The girl's sister is getting married over the next weekend and the family is so obsessed over it, they totally forgot about her birthday.

    Very cool about Dorney Park. I went there last year for the first time in 20 years and couldn't believe how much fun it was. I thought about going last weekend and ended up driving right past it today. I imagined everyone having so much fun on the rides and in the water park.

    As far as what you did on your birthday, I think you were right to have high expectations for it. But it isn't the end of the world if you were let down. Instead, maybe you could use the weird feelings and channel them into planning your sweet 17 party. You have a whole year to figure it out, right? And frankly, it might be a fun distraction.

    I've let a few biggies go by without any celebration or real party and I'm sick of it. I want a party! 🙂

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