people think that i'm to nice so they like to use me walk all over me cuz they think i'm to nice i will not tell any one but it's not that i'm to nice it's that i'm to weak i have to fight my demons all day every day i have to fight my self just to stay alive just so i do not get so mad that i do something i do not want to do i have to fight to just get out of bed i have to fight just to eat just to talk just to breath my anxiety likes to tell me that bad things r going to happen all day every day i have to fight just to leave the house cuz i'm to scared i'm to scared to eat to think to speak to do any thing my depression tells me i'm worthless i'm nothing that i'm crazy that no one loves me i can't tell if my depression is lying any more i have to fake a smile every day just so no one will see my pain just so i do not get hurt or so i do not hurt some one else every day i see a lest one thing that triggers my PTSD people yell at me cuz i have OCD i have to fight just so i can try to be ok but i know it will every happen so it's not that i'm to nice to tell any one it's at the end of the day i'm to weak to say any thing and no one can hurt me like i hurt my self
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Emptiness, Lonliness, Hurt
outdoorwoman84, , Depression, Addiction, Career, Depression, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, 0
2 1/2 months ago I went through a major life change. boyfriend at the time decided to just drop...
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Orlando Trip
sadviolinist, , Depression, Child, Depression, Grief, Relationships, 3
I know I haven't done much blogging lately, but you know how it is ~ you get tired of...
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The Neurotic's Notebook
EyeMInsane, , Depression, Anxiety, Sleep Disorders, Suicide, 0
Neurotic Selections from The Neurotic's Notebook, 1960 by Mignon McLaughlin No good neurotic finds it difficult to be both...
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When Things Feel Slower
ghostisgone, , Depression, Wellness Tips, Depression, Grief, 0
Sometimes, mostly when alone, things start to feel slower. The quiet seeps in, and often I find myself hiding...
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will it ever ease?
delane1, , Anxiety, Depression, Marriage & Family, OCD, Anxiety, Grief, PTSD, Sleep Disorders, Stress, 0
pain….frustration…aggravation….anxiety…..grief….and on and on the list grows. *sigh Before i even begin, let...
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OK, That’s it !!
brokenfairy_38, , Depression, Anger, Anxiety, Bipolar, Depression, Grief, Sleep Disorders, 0
I am so hurt, disappointed and just flat pissed off! … I haven’t had a decent night of sleep...
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Because I Can''t Do Any Real Work
thebadkitty, , Depression, Depression, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, Suicide, 0
So, I can’t get anything done with my play. For the first time quite a while, I’m too depressed...
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Slightly Hypomanic
sadviolinist, , Depression, Child, Relationships, 0
Today has been another up day…but at least the hypomania is low-key for hypomania. This morning we got up...