Yes, I’m still here. But Why? I could just right now kill myself. End the misery, end the pain.

I’ve said this many times, I might be repeating myself over and over again. but, who would notice?

I’m dead inside, my life is gone.

Depression is just a war of Screams and blood, But it’s all in my head. All I can do is scream and give into the agony.

I just want all of it to end. I want to be gone. I want to disappear. Maybe I’ll get my wish.

I don’t want anyone to cry when I’m gone, cause I’m already dead inside.

I help other people get back on their feet, but I haven’t felt a thing in years. I’ve forgotten how it feels to be happy and how to laugh

I fake my laughs, I fake my smiles, I fake my great state of mind. Except I can’t laugh or smile. and my mind is destroyed.

Who can help me get back. Who can help me get back to shore. I feel so alone, I can’t see anyone any where close to me. I’m sinking further then rock bottom. How though?

Who can help me? here’s my answer. If someone tries to help, I don’t notice. The reason is, they just don’t know how to talk to me. but the thing is all I want is someone to be there for me, someone I can turn to and just let go of my control. Do I have that? No don’t, cause they only person who did that killed themselves. How do I survive it? Was I the one who made him……..Was I the one who made Leo suffer and pull the trigger? Yes, It was my fault.

I’m going to hell anyway. I’ve lost my soul.