Ive had depression and anxiety for about 5 years now. It started out of nowhere. One day I was fine and the next day and forward have been hell.  Ive struggled more these last 2 years . These last 2 months have been one of the roughest. My health anxiety doesnt help.  People say it gets better. In reality, it never gets better. You have your good months and then you are back in a vicious cycle. How can you not think of suicide when you are in such a dark place? Nobody understands. I dont even understand why this happens to me. Ive prayed and prayed and prayed…I don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel yet.