— Iris’s night Out —

Hello to everyone out there… I took the plunge (so to speak)!

I’ve been building up to what I did last night for what seems to be the longest time…

Seems to take me forever to build up the courage to try something out of my comfort zone.  Okay, I need to set the scene:  I am passing through a town I have never been in before and I wanted to go out as “Iris”….!  I know, I know, I always say that I “never” do this!  But I’m leaving town in two days and don’t think I will ever be back.

Well, I did it!  I went out with a few old friends wearing a new dress (well… new to me)! Shaved my legs (god it’s been ages, and I know I will dread the hair growing back in. But it feels sooooo good, they are so super sensitive now and look great!  I know I should be modest, but they are one part of my body that I have always liked. Love how the fabric of the dress feels sliding across my skin… I can’t stop stroking my legs! …putting on lotion feels heavenly. 🙂

Got help with my makeup, it’s really subtle but I think it is enough.  I’ve spent so many hours practicing this, preening in the mirror, trying over and over and over again until I get it right… Some of my oldest and closest friends helped me learn how to do makeup together and via zoom (they are in another state after all)…  The ones who know my entire history, and have always had my back…

My hair has finally grown out to a length that I can give it a little style.  No need to worry about the remnants of my previous body, the hormone blockers brought that to a halt almost two years ago.  Fully transitioning will require me to move (maybe), population around here has dropped to nearly nothing, and there is no one here who has ever seen me as anything other than “him”.  Maybe I can introduce Iris as a cousin?

Right now the biggest obstacle is money and nerves to start taking the hormones.

I know I don’t really have the curves, but the design of this dress makes it look like I do. And….. I am wearing a new bra!  This is my second one, I wore out and grew out of the first one.  Been wearing this around at home getting used to it, and how it feels. But “just in case” I usually have my bag of work clothes.  I can slip them out of the bra and out of sight real quick (I’ve been practicing) and probably how I wore that first bra out.

… and I know this won’t be a surprise to any of you ladies, but they float when I dunk myself in the water to cool off!… This time of year I always look forward to getting home and dunking in the water trough. Horse drool be damned!  Feels so good to get the dust and sweat off….

…to be continued…

Sending out hugs, a huge smile and lots of prayers – Iris