Its been such a long time since Ive been on here. From what I've seen alot of people have a hiatus from this site, each for there different reasons. My reason is purely because I have a boyfriend and am generally feeling better in myself, I still have my bad days, weeks.

Ive told my boyfriend of my anxiety and he has been very understanding. Its been good for me because he knows when I go quite or get really agitated he knows why and can help me deal with it.

If I'm feeling anxious about going out somewhere, he tells me we don't need to go out. When he says that it makes me determined to go out, to not ruin his night, I just need a little time to get through it.

My moods are still unstable and I'm finding old insecurities that developed through pastexperiences have come back to haunt me in this new relationship.

I found out some information earlier, completely unrelated to my relationship that has made me agitated. My boyfriend lives almost 2hrs away. We have spent the last 2 weeks together, which is the first time we have been able to do that. We had a great time. Anyway, this is just background info to lead into the next thing I'm about to say…..

He has done nothing to cause me todoubt that he cares for me deeply and is a trustworthy guy. I text him earlier to see if i could call him to talk about a cat drama that I was having (yes, I don't like to call my friends unless I know they are available to chat, weird personal intrusion thing). He replied that he was with a friend and would call later. I hate being told that my boyfriend is with a friend….Why not just say their name, its just as easy as saying friend.

Now I have this internal dialogue thats running rampant in my head saying things like "he's with a girl, he doesnt want you to know" and so on. I dont want to say anything to him about it because I dont want to lose him. I text him to say not to worry about calling me and to have fun with his friend. I kept my anger out of the message as much as possible but it has obviously come through because he just text asking if something is wrong. I dont want him to think I am crazy but this is eating away at me and I cant pretend nothing is wrong.

I just feel so stupid getting so upset about something so small, I hate being the insecure girlfriend, because I thought I was better than that. I'm trying to turn the dialogue around in my head to something positive, but the anger remains, trapped in the bottom of my stomach, even after taking something to calm me.

Guys and girls, am I being unreasonable? Should I say something?

Thank you for reading.