Gosh, it seems life has always come at me so fast…and I'm used to it…but sometimes i just wish it would slow down a little…its never been smooth sailing around me…situations fall on top of my head and a decision has to be made right now…sometimes there a a couple of roads to choose…but mostly there is no choice..so many times in my life I've had about 5 or 10 minutes to make a choice…many times there is no choice…it has been decided by some higher power…which I take to mean this is a situation I am meant to go thru…yet another learning experience…I try to be strong and wear a big brave smile…everyone around me needs me to be strong…no time for feeling sorry for myself…but thats not my style anyway…I have 5 or 6 kinds of decisions to make right now…I am undecided…but i know when it comes down to it the choice will come easily from my lips…as if its been there all along….LOL…maybe my spirit guide whispers in my ear while I sleep…maybe Mother God comes to me in Dreams…Father keeps a watch over it all…I think with a tiny smile on his face…as he already knows I can be quite comical in the darkest times of my life…So, this is just to let ya'll know that if I'm not being quite my self…it's just that I have some heavy choices to make…and please don't mistake this note as a call for sympathy,,,because it is not…it is just a way to clear my mind…I have to talk things out…so there is room for the answers to come…but I do want to tell ya'll that I am so happy I was guided to this site…to meet so many lovely people,,,and for a place I might be of some help to people…with my own different perspective…Love & Light to all of you…Shadowstorm
Life comes at me fast!
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ACIM 12/9/08
jody417, , HIV or Aids, Anxiety, 0
Lesson 275 “God\'s healing Voice protects all things today.” What stands out to me today is, "Join me in...
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TODAY
jody417, , HIV or Aids, Addiction, Sleep Disorders, 0
6/24/08 Nine days sober YeePee, but boy, oh boy, do I get sick of feeling sooo tired. Sleep way...
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FOREVER IN MY HEART 25 years today
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On March 18th, 1985, twenty-five years today, my first partner and love Raymond Clark passed away . He was...
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Calabasas DEATH RIDE!! (April 12, 2008)
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So..as I mentioned yesterday this weekend was said to be very HOT…llike high 90s hot..yesterday got to the high...
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Primary Physician Prejudice
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Does my doctor hate me? I used to dread going to my regular doctor's office because I hated to...
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Masculine vs. Feminine
lisa218, , HIV or Aids, 0
Subject: Brrrreak time – Masculine vs. Feminine A SPANISH Teacher was explaining to her...
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Let Down
MarcAnthony, , HIV or Aids, Relationships, 2
I've been let down…yet again. Last weekend, a friend and I agreed to have lunch this Saturday afternoon ~...
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Nervous Truths
WeepingBuddha, , HIV or Aids, Anxiety, Parenting, Questions, Relationships, 1
In two days I am facing the greatest fear of my life – my past. More specifically, I am...


Hello Sweet Lady, everytime you write to me you touch my heart…I am the oldest of 8 kids…lol I can remember feeding my sister pickles, and giving the other a bottle, before I walked to school for kindergarten…lol…My stepmother raised us more than my mom…and it was when I was so little, that i had answers come to me or someone whispered in my ear…I think because My stepmother was a split personality…one was strict and motherly, the other dangerous and abusive and cruel…it seems all i ever did was clean house and raise kids…and that isnt the half of it…if they did anything wrong or got hurt,,, it was me that got hurt for it…it was a hard childhood…and very sheltered…so when I did get out in the world,,I made so many mistakes…lol and trusted so many…one of the things I like about you and Kim and some of the others is that we share a spirituality,,,and our faith is complete…it is so comforting to find likeminded people finally…I am just so very happy I met you…Love, Cindy