Gosh, it seems life has always come at me so fast…and I'm used to it…but sometimes i just wish it would slow down a little…its never been smooth sailing around me…situations fall on top of my head and a decision has to be made right now…sometimes there a a couple of roads to choose…but mostly there is no choice..so many times in my life I've had about 5 or 10 minutes to make a choice…many times there is no choice…it has been decided by some higher power…which I take to mean this is a situation I am meant to go thru…yet another learning experience…I try to be strong and wear a big brave smile…everyone around me needs me to be strong…no time for feeling sorry for myself…but thats not my style anyway…I have 5 or 6 kinds of decisions to make right now…I am undecided…but i know when it comes down to it the choice will come easily from my lips…as if its been there all along….LOL…maybe my spirit guide whispers in my ear while I sleep…maybe Mother God comes to me in Dreams…Father keeps a watch over it all…I think with a tiny smile on his face…as he already knows I can be quite comical in the darkest times of my life…So, this is just to let ya'll know that if I'm not being quite my self…it's just that I have some heavy choices to make…and please don't mistake this note as a call for sympathy,,,because it is not…it is just a way to clear my mind…I have to talk things out…so there is room for the answers to come…but I do want to tell ya'll that I am so happy I was guided to this site…to meet so many lovely people,,,and for a place I might be of some help to people…with my own different perspective…Love & Light to all of you…Shadowstorm
Life comes at me fast!
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Hello Sweet Lady, everytime you write to me you touch my heart…I am the oldest of 8 kids…lol I can remember feeding my sister pickles, and giving the other a bottle, before I walked to school for kindergarten…lol…My stepmother raised us more than my mom…and it was when I was so little, that i had answers come to me or someone whispered in my ear…I think because My stepmother was a split personality…one was strict and motherly, the other dangerous and abusive and cruel…it seems all i ever did was clean house and raise kids…and that isnt the half of it…if they did anything wrong or got hurt,,, it was me that got hurt for it…it was a hard childhood…and very sheltered…so when I did get out in the world,,I made so many mistakes…lol and trusted so many…one of the things I like about you and Kim and some of the others is that we share a spirituality,,,and our faith is complete…it is so comforting to find likeminded people finally…I am just so very happy I met you…Love, Cindy