1- No news from creeper yet. I'm really hoping that after he realizes I have someone he'll leave me alone. I've promised myself and everyone else that the next time I see him is when I'm calling the police to see if there's anything they can do for me. I know I keep saying next time, but I think the tipping point is when he told me that I deserved to have the s**t beat out of me. I guess that kind of scared me, so I've been only going out when I have one person with me, and I know it sounds stupid to only bring one person, but let me explain my reasoning. In a city as large as the one I'm in, people have 20 things on their mind at once, and they don't really pay attention as to what goes on to other people. I know I don't for a fact. And in large groups, I find it's harder to keep up with people until one person realizes the other has disappeared, so I figured that if I just stick with one person at a time or no more than 2 or 3, I won't have to worry about someone not realizing I'm gone if it's too late. I think it's a decent idea, what do you guys think?

2. Happier news! I get my braces off in a few months and can finally start my final restoration on my teeth. I'm very excited about this. I don't think I've mentioned this in any of my other blogs, but I was born without enamel. Yes, it's really weird and very rare. I've dealt with being made fun of my entire life on something that's not even my fault, but pretty soon that will be over, and I can't wait to be able to smile huge in my pictures. I can't wait for people to tell me I have a pretty smile and pretty teeth. It's been a long, painful, and expensive road, and soon I'm gonna feel like a super model (not saying I'm that gorgeous in any way. haha)

3. New industrial piercing is killing me. It hurts so bad, and I think this is the worst piercing I've gotten. In case you guys didn't read in my blog about my crooked second tongue piercing, my second tongue piercing wasn't "crooked" afterall. The holes themselves were straight, but they were too close together, so the bottom of the rings would twist together and make it look crooked. I'm going to go back to the shop after april and get that redone. This new one i have though is definitely the worst I've gotten…. combined… It looks so good, but it's so tender that even my boyfriend can't touch it at all, and of course, he forgets which ear it's on, so thank god I didn't get both ears done or he'd be in big trouble right now. haha. Everytime I get a piercing, the piercer absolutely LOVES them. It makes me feel great because I know they don't say that to everyone.

4. My boyfriend is here to visit me, which means a lot more freedom! I love actually being able to go out of my dorm and at the same time spend time with someone I care about. It's really great that he's here. So far I'm extremely happy with him, and I'm not saying we're going to last forever, but as long as we do last, I'm definitely going to enjoy the time we have. Not all relationships are meant for forever, but I know that each one has something to teach me. Each person I encounter has a meaning for my life, and even if they're there for a short period, every lesson matters.

5. One thing that really upset me today is that one of my "friends" kept talking about how I was lucky to date a guy as attractive as my boyfriend and that I should be glad that he even looks at me. She also said that he's too attractive. she didn't say for me, but I could kind of tell by the way she said that alone that she meant he was too attractive for me, and it really sucked. She talked about how she would love if she knew him first. I don't really know what that was all about, but it really hurt my feelings and I ended up asking my boyfriend if he thought he was too attractive for me and if I should feel lucky to even talk to him or have him look at me. I mean, he always tells me he thinks I'm beautiful, but sometimes I have a hard time believing it. Something about the way he looked at me when I asked this was like he couldn't believe I could even think that that's how our relationship was. He was so sweet to me. It made me feel like a princess, and for some reason it makes me feel like I'll go far into this relationship with him, which makes me happy. Still pissed at the friend though for acting like she's better than me and that I'm hideous.

Well, I guess that's really all for today. If you've read this far, thanks for making it through until the end. I appreciate it! 😀 Hope everyone is doing alright. Have a good one.

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  1. SarahSue62 13 years ago

     Matt- yes, I do have an issue with that. I have tried everything to let him down easy, but when this stranger finds out my entire life and has threatened me more than once to the point of I won't go out of my house, what do you expect me to do? Have I truly escalated this because I was clear that I didn't want to date him, and I have said this from the beginning? Am I so wrong for being scared of someone I don't know? Think about it. I'm not sure what this man is capable of, and honestly, you've said I've been wrong about every thing in this situation. You said yourself in the very beginning when i mentioned this that you've never had a stalker. Do I feel sorry for a man that has tortured me for 2 months now to where I can't even walk out in daylight to get food? Hell no I don't. So why is it that you put the blame on me? why is it I'm the one that's wrong in everything when I'm still the victim? I'm trapped by a stranger, and it's all my fault to you. You have a stalker and see how scared and isolated you can be by someone you don't know. It's honestly made me want to throw myself off a building and it's only been happening for 2 months. i can't imagine dealing with this for 2 years or however long it would take him to get the picture. what are you suggesting I do? Wait until he tries to kill me? Yeah, I don't think that's gonna happen.

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