He pulled his gun, and shot not a blank, and left me dying, lying on the bank.
A twisted world soon did I find, I always knew I was out of line…
Off I went into outter space, too observe the world, too deteriorate…
Then time stops, and pulls me in, a black hole to be born again…
And think not of the past I try, But only in my sleepy eye.
I did some rituals yesterday, while at work, and at home… Kept telling myself NO, don't do that. Made me frustrated. I did do a couple because I felt anxious. Then I was mad at myself for doing them, I felt stupid. I still feel stupid… Then I got a really bad head ache. I think because I smoked too many cigarettes and being frustrated… It still hurts. I need to stop smoking…
Ricky showed up at my building last night and we took a 40 min. brake. Ricky is funny. 🙂 Then I finished my building. Then went to the other building where I tried to avoid Gary and Ricky because I didn't feel like talking to anyone. So I pulled the trash, and went outside on the balcony and listened to some music for about 15 min. When I came back inside Ricky and Robin were there… I didn't mind it I guess. I had my alone time…
I want to call into work. My body doesn't want to do anything. But I make it. I wish it were Friday… So I could lay around all day… But, I guess, that will not solve much of anything… So maybe I should just go shower, then cook dinner…
Hey the dogs are chasing each other. Sigh…