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Lately I feel like I'm back to square one with my OCD. My fear of germs has gotten worse. I am at a point where I want to get rid of my furniture and pillows and bedding because they are a breeding ground for germs. I have to wash my dishes by hand, then steam clean them in the dishwasher, then by hand again before I can put them away…then of course I have to wash them by hand again when I get them out of the cabinet to get off any germs they got in the cabinet. I have to boil my toothbrush before each use. I am afraid to breathe because the air is contamintated. I wash constantly but am afraid to take a shower because I think my bathtub is contaminated so I have touse the sink. I feel like germs are attacking my eyes and are going to get me sick. I don't touch anything unless I absolutely have to. I can barely bring myself to hug my kids and run straight to wash when I do. I have missed so much school that I don't know if I'll pass this semester. I am going deeper and deeper into this OCD hell. I have been getting intrusive thoughts and images of killing myself to escape the germs (nothing I would act on but they are scary) that are everywhere. My medication is doing absolutely nothing for me.
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Lately I feel like I'm back to square one with my OCD. My fear of germs has gotten worse. I am at a point where I want to get rid of my furniture and pillows and bedding because they are a breeding ground for germs. I have to wash my dishes by hand, then steam clean them in the dishwasher, then by hand again before I can put them away…then of course I have to wash them by hand again when I get them out of the cabinet to get off any germs they got in the cabinet. I have to boil my toothbrush before each use. I am afraid to breathe because the air is contamintated. I wash constantly but am afraid to take a shower because I think my bathtub is contaminated so I have touse the sink. I feel like germs are attacking my eyes and are going to get me sick. I don't touch anything unless I absolutely have to. I can barely bring myself to hug my kids and run straight to wash when I do. I have missed so much school that I don't know if I'll pass this semester. I am going deeper and deeper into this OCD hell. I have been getting intrusive thoughts and images of killing myself to escape the germs (nothing I would act on but they are scary) that are everywhere. My medication is doing absolutely nothing for me.
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Lately I feel like I'm back to square one with my OCD. My fear of germs has gotten worse. I am at a point where I want to get rid of my furniture and pillows and bedding because they are a breeding ground for germs. I have to wash my dishes by hand, then steam clean them in the dishwasher, then by hand again before I can put them away…then of course I have to wash them by hand again when I get them out of the cabinet to get off any germs they got in the cabinet. I have to boil my toothbrush before each use. I am afraid to breathe because the air is contamintated. I wash constantly but am afraid to take a shower because I think my bathtub is contaminated so I have touse the sink. I feel like germs are attacking my eyes and are going to get me sick. I don't touch anything unless I absolutely have to. I can barely bring myself to hug my kids and run straight to wash when I do. I have missed so much school that I don't know if I'll pass this semester. I am going deeper and deeper into this OCD hell. I have been getting intrusive thoughts and images of killing myself to escape the germs (nothing I would act on but they are scary) that are everywhere. My medication is doing absolutely nothing for me.
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Mishela,
It sound ad though you need to return to therapy and either see if you need meds or if your meds need adjusted.
Ocd is cyclical. It sound like you are at peak cycle. I don't know if it does any goo to tell you or for you to tell yourself that you are having an ocd episode.
While I am sure we all support you and tell you not to give up and that we've been here. At this particular junction a therapist may be more useful.