My family is trash. Today I woke up again to my dad being creepy and touching and hugging me like I’m my mom (I’m a male) and he doesn’t do that to anyone else and he just disgusts me to no extent. Last year on his birthday I said to my therapist that I wanted to kill myself and they had to take me to a mental health Institute and the whole way there I was yelled at all the way up until we walked into the lobby. They just stayed quiet. The reason I wanted to kill myself particularly bad then was because he had beaten me that morning for not wanting to go to my school (I got bullied often and have a lot of cuts on very noticeable places) and he just played it off like it was normal. I still went to school that day with a big red mark on my face and scratches and a few bruises on my arms. I was miserable and I cried so much but people at school just walked by. I also have a lot of allergies to things that make it hard for me to breath or burn and peel my mouth and everyone in my family just taunts me on it by putting it at the table and rubbing it on me, it really hurts. My mom is a two faced bitch. She is so sweet and kind in public but even when I politely excuse myself from a conversation like saying “I’m busy, I need to go do homework” or “I gotta go” she’ll scold me later and threaten to break my teeth (she’s done this since I was 3) and spank me really hard (she does this often). They also just generally verbally harrass me and hurt me. I have a sleeping disorder so in the morning I still wake up tired, so I am sometimes a bit snappy, but then they suddenly walk up to me and they’re like “you’re such a drag and we can never take you to nice places, kids around the world would kill to be in your shoes” and I admit, I know I can be spoiled but… I don’t think kids want to get beaten. My parents are both loud, obnoxious, and really homophobic. My brother is even worse right now. He constantly bugs me and hits me really hard (he’s a full grown adult and I’m 14 and incredibly short and small) and likes to steal my stuff. I’m just really done with this all and I kinda just wanna leave.
