I need a friend. One or two or more.
Loneliness is killing me. slowly.
Every day separated creates more resentment
Every passing day builds a fear of life long loneliness
Love? No longer unconditional, no longer effortless, no longer alive
No more happiness. No more happy thoughts. No more dreams. No future.
Further away from the only 3 things I want in life:To be in love, to be a wife & to start a family
I want what is there, now – nothing else seems to interest me. Anything else will steer me further away from my goals. Holding on to the hope that my goals are within reach is better than nothing at all…
Every day just seems like a waste. Like I'm holding on to a dream that may never exist… And if it fails – I will spirale downward; horribly. If it survives – hopefully it won't be too late…
Am I blind to what is reality and in love with someone/something that no longer exists?
On the verge of tears, panic attacks, increased anxiety & more depression.
Love is not about sacrifice – it's about compromise? But compromising my mental health is not love. Compromising my loneliness is not love. Compromising my fear of you hurting me again is not love. Compromising having to be apart due to your selfish decisions is not love at all.
I don't know how to survive being alone; nor do I want to be alone.
You talk as if things will change – I have yet to see any change….
I will make you feel guilty for a very long time for doing this to me.
You took away my happiness; my smile; my lifelong dreams…
Yet I selfishly cannot resist you anymore. You make me weak.
I hate the person I've become because of how you made me feel.
I need a friend. Someone who understands my heartache. Someone who makes me feel like my existence matters. Someone who isn't you. Someone who appreciates me and doesn't take advantage of my kindness or my love.