Ok tribers I had the most typical Friday the 13th. BAD BAD BAD!I am not superstitious or anything like that but I just can't believe my dumb luck. About a month ago I had a 1 night stand with an ex. The condom broke but since there was spermicide I knew I wouldn't be pregnant, and he tested neg so far for HIV.  I knew something was off because my period comes like clock work every 28 days. Well I have gone before without a period during a month 1 time I was in the hospital sick and the doctor said that was normal. But I am not sick, so my daughter and son in law bought me a pregnancy test because I have been having baby dreams for like a week now, so they were teasing me . I AM FRIGGIN PREGNANT!!! I called my HIV doctor after I took the test, got his answering service, they asked is this an emergency. I said hell yes this is I am 38 years old and I just found out I am pregnant, and I need to know what meds I need to stop taking. So my doctor suddenly is on the line, and says April what is it? I say I took a pregnancy test and it turned up positive, He said repeat that! then he said what? Then he said be in my office first thing Monday so that we can confirm the results. HE told me which of my crazy pills to stop taking. Oh my God I just can't believe this. I called my mom to tell her, She is only mad about who I slept with, No one likes him. She hung up on me. Well this is the plan…. If the results are confirmed then I won't be telling the ex that I am pregnant at all ever, I will cut off all relations to him, no phone calls nothing. I have done this to myself and I should have kept the damn things closed!  I am anti abortions, but at the same time I am not in favor of fiving birth to an HIV positive baby. WTF am I going to do?My kids are adults, I have a grandson and another grandbaby on the way. I am 38 years old, Dec I will be 39. OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!

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    TravelingMan1966 12 years ago

    Holy chit.. Talk about a shock from heck.. You have some major things to think about and i dont envy you at all.. Coming from the male side , i would want to know if you were pregnant and would want the chance to take the child after birth but thats just me.. Anyway, just cus your 38 doesnt mean much, heck im 44,, have a 23 year old son.. two grandkids and one on the way.. My girlfriend and i have 3 more kids, 16 , 12, 6 and trust me.. woooo .. 6 year old wears me out at times but hey, its all about enjoying life.. again. i dont envy you on your decisions and i do wish you the very best.. Peace and Happiness.. trippy

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    Apple71 12 years ago

    Thank you all for your support.  I woke up with a major headache this morning, not sure if its from my sleep apnea or not taking some of my meds. All I know is I want to crawl back in bed and sulk. My daughter TIna will be over here anytime now so staying in bed is not an option, she won't let me.  I feel like crap. Ordinarily I would tell the dad, but not this time, his priorities are hustling up 5 sacks of pot, and getting laid by who ever. I already decided that if I have it, My daughter Tina will take over when I am unable to, which she has agreed to. My mom won't answer the phone for me. That hurts alot.

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    Apple71 12 years ago

    Thank you gals for the encouragement. Today has been a better day. my mom spoke to me as if nothing ever happened, HAd tons of company today so I was on my best behavior considering I didn't have all of my crazy pills and I wasn't feeling up to anything, but had some good laughs answered some questions, got teased a little all in good sport. My daughter cut my hair, I asked for a trim and it went from the middle of my back to above my shoulders because she was trying to even it out. SO I am better than I expected myself to be.  I did some obsessing over ants of all things, but other than that I am ok. Thank you so much for the love and support

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