Ok tribers I had the most typical Friday the 13th. BAD BAD BAD!I am not superstitious or anything like that but I just can't believe my dumb luck. About a month ago I had a 1 night stand with an ex. The condom broke but since there was spermicide I knew I wouldn't be pregnant, and he tested neg so far for HIV.  I knew something was off because my period comes like clock work every 28 days. Well I have gone before without a period during a month 1 time I was in the hospital sick and the doctor said that was normal. But I am not sick, so my daughter and son in law bought me a pregnancy test because I have been having baby dreams for like a week now, so they were teasing me . I AM FRIGGIN PREGNANT!!! I called my HIV doctor after I took the test, got his answering service, they asked is this an emergency. I said hell yes this is I am 38 years old and I just found out I am pregnant, and I need to know what meds I need to stop taking. So my doctor suddenly is on the line, and says April what is it? I say I took a pregnancy test and it turned up positive, He said repeat that! then he said what? Then he said be in my office first thing Monday so that we can confirm the results. HE told me which of my crazy pills to stop taking. Oh my God I just can't believe this. I called my mom to tell her, She is only mad about who I slept with, No one likes him. She hung up on me. Well this is the plan…. If the results are confirmed then I won't be telling the ex that I am pregnant at all ever, I will cut off all relations to him, no phone calls nothing. I have done this to myself and I should have kept the damn things closed!  I am anti abortions, but at the same time I am not in favor of fiving birth to an HIV positive baby. WTF am I going to do?My kids are adults, I have a grandson and another grandbaby on the way. I am 38 years old, Dec I will be 39. OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!