Well I thought I would give an update to all my friends and all who offer great support and words of wisdom. I have to say I think I finally found a program that will help me locate where I lost my life some years ago. I thought I would be admitted but after a screening they put me in a partial program at the hospitol that deal with mental illness and substance abuse. I have such a positive out look on this program because I have 4 doctors a counsilor and group sessions with people just like me. I am not gonna knock AA but having 5 people from AA saying I don't need mental therapy to me is bullshit! I was sober for 8 months and I felt worse than I did sober than drunk and messed up which means according to the doctors that there is a dual diagnosis and that I from past medical records should have had mental care for my Bi Polar / OCD. Come to also find out that the last 6 medications they put me on cause mania and should only be prescribed to people with general depression. WOOHOO I know I'm a nut but shit I thought I was hopeless. I now feel I will get both the support for my addiction and the help for my mental disorders that have gone untreated. Well I treated them with a prescription of a liter of vodkas and whatever else I could manage to get into my system. For once I actually feel hope and NO it's not a pink cloud for all you AA quote masters lol. I love this site and the support I get from all of you. I cannot wait to find out what it's like to be happy again just like a kid on Christmas eve I am excited damn it feels good to know I am finally getting them help I need. Extra bonus is I qualify for medical assistance from being out of work for so long so money won't be a stress for me either. I can get temporary assistance and get better so I can go back to being successful again ohh and maybe when I am better I can learn to be a better speller. I love you all and no guys not in a gay way haha.
blueflame666, , Addiction, Addiction, Depression, Domestic Abuse, Lesbian, Gay, LGBTQ, OCD, Stress, Therapy, 4
WOW…..that is just wonderful…way to go…so glad you found something that is going to work for you…..rock on….
I’m really thrilled for you! Keep up the great work… and don’t let anyone who isn’t a doctor tell you what medications you can take. A lot of us used alcohol and drugs to self medicate. I’m glad you got an accurate diagnosis and the correct meds will help a lot.
…turns out… my spelling still sucks sober
Congrats Blue. I did a patial day program and it helped me. Just don’t give up. We are here for you. And remember unless a person has a medical digree don’t listen to thier medical advice. Stay stong and clean !!!
u sound like a canidate for the front row at a n/a meeting- good luck & listen to ya Dr’s. skag