Kay here's the situation.
This happened about a 2 weeks ago.
So on this said day I am talking about, I had been having a pretty bad time, a bad few weeks for that matter. Anyways, me and my mom were NOT getting along, I was already pissed off about a million and two things and I felt just bad all over in general. So then she tells me if I don't get my attitude together I'm going to be grounded. This sets me off because she doesn't understand what I'm going through inside my head and she doesn't realize how hard this move and all these things have been on me lately. Anyways then she tells me to go clean out the car and windex it and stuff, well I go outside and automatically burst into tears just ranting to myself and I'm so fed up with her not knowing about my depressoin that in the passion of the moment i type into her txt on my phone, "Come outside we need to talk" and I don't really plan on sending it I just wanted to type it so i could pretend like i did and feel a little better. In the habit of sending texts as I do frequently, I accidently press the send button, and for a second I am frozen I don't know what to do, then i realize this must be God telling me that now is the time to tell her, so i prepare what i will say in my head. I am still crying and it is about 80 degrees outside so I am sweating and just generally nasty all over with mascara running down my face, needless to say i looked a mess. I clean the entire car which takes about 20 minutes and she still doesn't come outside. I give up clean my face on a paper towel and go inside. We are later sitting at the table with her and my grandma and she pulls out her phone to check the time. She says "Oh I have a text!" and i obviously know it is mine, but i don't want to talk about it in front of my gparents so I just say, "yeah it's from me but nevermind it." and that's how it ends. I was so ready that day to confess to her everything i was feeling. I was so ready to be open, and I thought God was telling me it was the right thing to do, but then she doesn't even get the text?!!?
You tell me what that means. And what I should do.