this is my first blog, and i really dnt want ppl thinking i'm some self centred bitch, which suckily for me most ppl think out of misunderstanding or maybe i just am ….., anyway this is my first blog and i just needed to vent a little, stuff that been buggen me a little,

i suffer from depression and anxiety (haha suffer), and well umm ,, i feel like this place and dt, is the only place i cn write down thoughts or feelings, or something, i always dnt tell anyone about how i feel, becos no one likes to know, i hav tried alot but i  become so weary from all my effort getting no where and leading me to fel even worse with ppl ignoring me, or saying unnice things. which i am sick of , it really isnt hard to be nice, and i dont understand why ppl at skool are so nast, makes me feel like a shadow

but i guess a shadow is wat i have gotten used to, over the years i feel like some mist perhaps not there, cos no one seems to see me, i have always been the quiet girl, the shy girl, no one talk to her, she is boring and ugly, yes i havve heard them say that wen they thought i couldnt hear

this blog means, that i dont wan to be seen as self absorbed, i hate selfishness, cnt stand it, and wen i find myslef talking about me , and my problems, it just isnt faire or anyone, i am selfish which makes me hate myself , leading to other problems blah blah blah, and really in chat it isnt my turn to speak, cos really why would anyone ever want to?