Back to work tonight, then off for another 3 days…Aparently my divorce went through on the 30th or december, tis a good thing when all is said and done. I believe that this will be another part of my "recovery" and more of an opportunity to move forward, not like I havent been. This has been 2 plus years in the works and if everyone is happy than who am I to complain. I look ahead to what this year can potentially bring, and where I am in life right now. I have pretty much gone with the flow and accepted much of what has gone on without a fuss. I made some very difficult choices and now I sit at a potential cross roads with more choices to make. Funny how life is a bundle of choices, and even if we do nothing that still is a choice. Pleasing people has been my downfall…The only one I have yet to please is me, I have often been asked "what will make you happy" My mind races and comes up with nothing… This is my second divorce (or failed marriage) Finacially things are a mess as with most people these days, I chose to withdraw from school ealier this year purly due to not being able to pay my bills and the need to work fulltime…I just was able to get my health insurance back as of Jan 1 after not having any for the last 6 months…and well thats how things are at the moment…I have classes starting back up on the 8th of Jan..and the RN program starts again in August…the question is…at 47…what will really make me happy…bc I sure as fuck dont know…and am tired of just going through the motions….Jan 6th is 1000 days for this Addict…whatever