Hey MikeyLovetteDude,

I’m going to be blunt here. Are you thinking of ending your life, or is it a call out for help? I’m not saying it in a bad way or to put you down, because asking for help is a hard thing to do. Many people are ill equipped to handle these sorts of feelings and you might think people as dismissive to your feelings. I’m in no way qualified to help you in a professional means, therapists get paid the wage they do for a very good reason.

I cannot promise your situation will get better, it is irresponsible to give someone hope you can’t guarantee. Life is hard, there are adults feeling the same way even and these are very valid feelings you and other people have.

One thing I can say is you are being really hard on yourself and your self worth is quite low. You aren’t useless, annoying, boring, underwhelming or dumb, you’re still young and I know for myself I was lost when I was young.

I’m not quite sure what your situation is regarding therapy, it can be difficult and expensive. It really sounds like you could benefit from it to work out the issues you are having, and he/she would be way more helpful than people here. On this site, you can find people that you can relate to or vent, which is a great resource which is a great tool on top of therapy.

I wish you luck on this difficult journey.