Last night my girlfriend came over and spent the night. everything seemed to be going great. then when we woke up, we went out to the family room and my dad told me some terrible news…

Ok this story starts off back when i was in elementary school. If i would ever get depressed or feeling like i wasnt wanted, i would always go over to this lady's house that lived across the street. we would play cards, sit and talk, have bonfires, etc.. at that time she was in her late 60s. during the winter, if there was any snowfall i would go over there and shovel her driveway and she would give me candy as payment for it… i would always go and check to see how she was doing. she was like a grandma to me. she always would say how all of her children were grown up and how i was like one of her kids.

About 2 1/2 years ago, i saw her with her daughter and when i greeted her, she said to me "i know your face"… that was like a dagger in the heart. someone that was like a grandma to me, didnt even recognize me. so, i decided that it would be easier for me, and her, if i didnt go over to her house after that cuz her kids told me that her memory was going and i couldnt handle the thought of me going over to her house and her not knowing who i was

so, the terrible news…… she passed away on thursday…..at the age of 83. every time i think about her, i cry. she was such a close person to me. she helped me get through some really tough times in my life….so, i found out about it from my dad, who said that my sister saw it in the newspaper. so, just the thought of her not being here anymore…. hurts so bad…..