So far I've gotten the full time position in my department.  The down side is that I'm still split shift while I'm training in my replacement.  This is very irritating as I don't have the time to do the work for the full time job because I have to take my afternoons off to train in the evenings.  I know it's only for a short while, but I'm new to the full time job and I still need help myself!  So far help is very seldom.  I get so swamped with things that I'm just barely sketchy on how to do!

Surprisingly, one of the more 'hard-ass' coworkers I have there has been the biggest help.  Absolutely everyone is shocked by this, including me.  But I keep trying. I want to be able to do everything with the least ammount of frazzle as possible, even though I know this is a high frazzle shift.

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Also, while I'm posting, living alone again in my apartment has been, well, lonely.  I miss having someone to chat with, or hug, or just curl up with. I'm a very social person and it's hard comming home and just having no one.  I've lapsed into my old habits too.  Forgetting to do chores, forgetting to take medicine, I feel like I'm an imbicile because I can't keep up with normal daily activity and that I somehow need someone around just to get through things. I don't like the fact that I'm so dependent, but the more "independant" I get, the more I just want to cry.

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One good news though. I found an easy way to keep my apartment smelling nice.  It's so small that any smell just fills the place up, but I hate wasting money on air scent things.  I found that I've got some shower gel and body lotion of the same scent so when I shower with the gel, I use the lotion right afterward and it seems that everything I touch, then, ends up smelling like the lotion.  That works out because I can come home to a nice smell instead of random smells that I can't identify but apparently exist.