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My commentary on Ann Coulter
usaporkchops, , Depression, Questions, Religion, Sex Therapy, 0
Last week Ann Coulter made headlines again by insulting John Edwards with a sexual orentation slur on cable TV....
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Unsure
Cherish, , Depression, Anxiety, Depression, Domestic Abuse, Relationships, Suicide, 0
I had a ruff day and was tired of waiting for my once a week counsler visit. I was...
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My Friday
sadviolinist, , Depression, Anxiety, Child, Depression, Medication, Parenting, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, 0
My sleep schedule is so messed up. I'm exhausted all day long, but then in the early a.m. I'm...
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Just me, again.
GreenSkies, , Depression, Anxiety, Sleep Disorders, 0
Well, just me again I suppose, still in the land of the living. Today has been a bitch of...
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Healing time
Aspiretodream, , Depression, Depression, 0
Go find something that will make you feel better about yourself. This goes to everyone out there who doesn't...
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What Makes Things Matter?
KnockedDown, , Depression, Career, Codependency, Depression, Relationships, 2
I can't help but wonder why we put significance on certain things and ignore others. It's obviously perspective, what...
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Having trouble coping
snowdreamer, , Depression, Depression, Domestic Abuse, Medication, 1
I try not to whine but I thought if I wrote down how I''m feeling it might help getting...
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Good Morning…
thebadkitty, , Depression, 0
So overwhelmed at the moment… not manic… just overwhelmed… worried, I guess… maybe, I’ll chill as the day moves...
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i hate it when people say "how have you been" as the introduction to every convo and then it's like you can't answer. You have to say something like "oh, rubbish really" then you can see in their face instantly they just don't have the energy for you or something, then they ask "why?" and the side of you comes out that you hate (like gollum from lord of rings), the self destructive side (which is the only side i can access) , and you hear yourself saying rubbish about yourself and the person just wants to get away.
i'm starting to hate myself so much.i can't stand myself.i never do anyof the things i want to do that are right infront of me. i waste all my and other peoples time. i'm the type of personality that i would absolutely loathe on another person. lazy, greedy, unproductive, effortless, boring,envious and self centred, even though i'm really nice and i want to do good in the world and i worry about everyone, i just spend all my time wallowing in my own rubbish self.
I don't want to be like this my whole life but i'm too scared to try incase i actually gain more hope (which is something i definately don't need) and i'm dissapointed. i'm not enjoying life enough (at all) to be in it. i'm scared of random things like getting a random heart attack or being stabbed or something, because that would really hurt and it would be rubbish, and theres no point living if theres nothing i want to live for and only these crazy horrible things happening every now and then that cause massive distress. i can't just be in the surviveing state anymore, i want to be in the living state, even if i'm not happy i just don't want to be surviving i want to be living and working through it.
i wish i had a depressed freind to talk to in real life, maybe i can't make freinds not because i'm depressed but because i'm just rubbish in general
i'm even rubbish on here. i never remember people, i just keep blogging assuming people wont want to be harassed by me but theres those freinds who take the effort to post birthday animations (thanks guys) on my wall and i don't even keep track of how they all are.
take care