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Alone
deidrexx, , Depression, Anxiety, Depression, Relationships, 0
So now I'm completely alone. I can't go back to AT because some girl hates me there because I...
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Babby…
lexi, , Depression, Anxiety, Child, Relationships, 0
I don’t really know where to start. We are so up and down, I just don’t know what to...
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A word to the posers
mamabear18, , Depression, Anxiety, Bipolar, Depression, Personality Disorder, Psychosis, PTSD, Schizophrenia, Stress, 0
Normally I’m not confrontational here on D Tribe, I try to be understanding and until now...
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No one prepares you for it..
Littlewing, , Anxiety, Depression, Marriage & Family, 4
They always say that life and emotions are like a rollercoaster. You think about it after a while well...
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A Rubik’s Cube of Emotion
LadyFrank, , Anxiety, Depression, Marriage & Family, Addiction, Anxiety, Child, Depression, Parenting, Relationships, Religion, Stress, 0
Its time to start processing some of this out. I process and analyze my thoughts and emotions in my...
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Jibber jabber jibberish
sadjac, , Depression, Addiction, Sleep Disorders, 0
Tuesdays.. I like Tuesdays. I have no classes on Tuesdays. Well I got well and truely hammerd last night....
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Ugly stupid fat drug addicted me..
troubelled, , Depression, Obesity, Relationships, Sex Therapy, 0
Well.i havebt been on in a while but im back chattin with yall i have made.some dumb dumb choices...
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My Obligations
mireilleluv, , Depression, Self Esteem, 1
As we all have obligations towards ourselves and society, I reflect on how I am able or unable to...
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i hate it when people say "how have you been" as the introduction to every convo and then it's like you can't answer. You have to say something like "oh, rubbish really" then you can see in their face instantly they just don't have the energy for you or something, then they ask "why?" and the side of you comes out that you hate (like gollum from lord of rings), the self destructive side (which is the only side i can access) , and you hear yourself saying rubbish about yourself and the person just wants to get away.
i'm starting to hate myself so much.i can't stand myself.i never do anyof the things i want to do that are right infront of me. i waste all my and other peoples time. i'm the type of personality that i would absolutely loathe on another person. lazy, greedy, unproductive, effortless, boring,envious and self centred, even though i'm really nice and i want to do good in the world and i worry about everyone, i just spend all my time wallowing in my own rubbish self.
I don't want to be like this my whole life but i'm too scared to try incase i actually gain more hope (which is something i definately don't need) and i'm dissapointed. i'm not enjoying life enough (at all) to be in it. i'm scared of random things like getting a random heart attack or being stabbed or something, because that would really hurt and it would be rubbish, and theres no point living if theres nothing i want to live for and only these crazy horrible things happening every now and then that cause massive distress. i can't just be in the surviveing state anymore, i want to be in the living state, even if i'm not happy i just don't want to be surviving i want to be living and working through it.
i wish i had a depressed freind to talk to in real life, maybe i can't make freinds not because i'm depressed but because i'm just rubbish in general
i'm even rubbish on here. i never remember people, i just keep blogging assuming people wont want to be harassed by me but theres those freinds who take the effort to post birthday animations (thanks guys) on my wall and i don't even keep track of how they all are.
take care