What starting out as a way to just get away, give my brain and my heart a break turned out to be so much more. And so much worser than I could have imagined, even in my nightmares. Parts were fun, omg lots of fun, learned a lot, saw lots of good and tons of bad. Some things were scary, some funny, some painful. I made some money and lost some money, guess that is what happens to girls like me.
I was feeling shut out, being put down and made to feel like shit, all by a girl who was supposed to be my partner, my love… I decided to say fuck it and run away. If she dont want me, I’m sure I can find someone who does, and definitely find guys who would want to be with me and even pay to be with me.
I saw some really beautiful parts of the country and some parts that were less pretty. Had a job in Minneapolis for a bit over a week. Learned that I kinda liked the feeling of drugs, but the feelings weren’t worth it. I was forced to do things and some things were done cuz I was cool with it. I decided to come home and while in Arizona, I worked out of a strip club for a few nights and one night, it was raining. I remember laffing, it’s the middle of summer and it’s raining. Not cold rain, just chilly, but nice. Next thing I know, I woke up in the hospital, cracked skull, dislocated jaw, messed up sholder, cracked ribs, black eyes. Cops where assholes to me, cuz I couldn’t remember anything, I heard them talking to the dr outside the room thing i was in. They fucking said I’m either a hooker, a runaway or homeless…so no humans were involved. If she wants to talk, give us a call. She won’t and she”ll be back out on the streets in a couple of days.
I’m finally back home, my head hurts all the time, still have nose bleeds, eyes don’t focus and they are vampire looking..
I fucking can’t handle this life, I need to do something different, but i have no skills, no i.d. and no references… Idk how to get out or what i want if I do.
I’ve been in the hospital for a few days…my g/f found me on the floor and my nose and ear was bleeding. Guess I’ve been having seizures. I hope to get out today or tomorrow.