It has been a while since I've wrote. But, I'll just tell you about my weekend.

Thursday; Thursday I hung out with Cougar at his house. Before I hung out with him, I knew he liked me, and he knew I still had feelings for him. But yet, I thought hanging out with him was a good idea. We toked down, and chilled. Then, before I could realize it, we were kissing. At the time, I was still with John. But, I still kissed him back, and I enjoyed it. It is weird though, because I didn't feel bad. Maybe slightly, but other than that, not at all.

Friday; Friday morning I broke up with John, even after he sent me a long text message telling me how much he loved me. The conversation went better than what I thought it would. Later on, I hung out with Cougar. We toked down, and chilled. And, once again, we ended up kissing. A little bit later, we found ourselves laying on his bed. Cougar asked me out, and I said yes. So, Friday is the day Cougar and I started dating. Then, a little bit more later on, our kissing started to get hot and heavy. Next thing I know, my bra is practically off, and Cougar's hand is in my pants. Then came the words that makes every girls heart flutter, stop for a second, jump, or something else. He said "I have a condom,". In the end, we had sex. I must now tell you of a glorious moment I expirenced.. Cougar was on top of me, and right after he came, he just layed on me, cuddling into me as I held onto him. I felt his heart beat on my chest. While I was holding him, I got this feeling inside me, that was just.. amazing; For lack of better word. I felt needed. Wanted. I felt like I meant something to someone.

Saturday; Saturday I was unable to hang out with Cougar, so I just chilled next door watching movies all day and night. It was a pretty chill day.

Sunday; Sunday I hung out with Cougar. We toked down, and chilled. We didn't do much besides lay down and watch Cheech and Chong, which was dope.

Monday; Monday, today, sucked. All day, I was pissed off by the littlest shit. It was annoying. Then, at lunch, I sat with Katy for a little bit. She told me some things that I am glad I heard. On the Friday that I broke up with John; Katy broke up with Chance. So, since Katy and John were both single, John decided to cuddle with Katy. Along with kissing her ear lobes and neck. Then, on Saturday, John went over to some girls house, and I guess they had sex. I believe Katy. She is not a liar, I know that for a fact. But anyways, after hearing what she had to say, I had to hide my anger and pain. Meanwhile, my thoughts are going crazy. Crazy enough to the point where I just said them out loud. I think that, that is bullshit. And, it actually does not bother me. Because all it does, is lessen his chances of ever getting back together with me. It's like.. You say you 'love me' but then I find out that you went and did that.. Don't get me wrong, I know I am not one to point fingers, but still.. What a fvcking way to get over your ex-girlfriend.. What a way..

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