For anyone who's kept up with my postings…blog entries….I had a breakup with a friend about a month ago, the sad part is….the hurt for me goes soo deep that- I tend to re-run the whole incident in my head with or without trying…and I just annoyed my best friend without trying (one of the two that stuck by me the closest the whole time)… thanks to my OCD/hurt…the hurt isn't as deep as it was a month ago- but it's still there….and there's a big blockade to any of the friendship between her and me because….nowadays- my other friend here- is contradicting the whole incident alltogether…mind you we both have different forms of OCD too….lately it's been certain comments and stuff in messages which make NO SENSE whatsoever considering what happened..and the fact is too- this one's lying, whether she knows it or not to protect the other friend who joined her on the original big incident (DUN DUN DUNN), which in the long run is Completely Unacceptable in my book. You're either my friend or you're Not….. She's lucky she can still "talk" to me….not that it's much since I'm basically barely talking to her…and sort of backing away yet again. And you know- she has to EARN my trust back…which in this case might take a loong while…GOD I WISH that annoying other friend was Out of the Picture ALLTOGETHER besides me having this one blocked…and another one who's comments on Johnny's FB annoyed me…since that crowd would rather Gossip and Spread rumors regarding him or me….Well..as the song for "Rumors" goes.."ah, let the rumors fly, you'll see by and by, deep within my heart you're the only one that I adore…so don't believe those rumors, anymore…"

And you know what else? I'm probably doing just what Lucas would do if Mark had done something drastically similar….okay- someone does have a write up of a story similar actually…Michelle who did the Mark's POV of the eps on RiflemanConnors uhh- oh- and the particular episode in question here- is..her write up of "The Debt" which was later season 4…

Yup- that "friend" of mine's got Extra Chores to do and a LOT of Explainin before she ever earns my trust back!!