My least favorite time of the year is here. The unpleasant and deadly (allergy) for me spice smell (cinnamon) spice now is in many stores. Yay! Not so much! I have to wear a mask even in non covid times in stores because of cinnamon
Normally, we don’t even put up a Xmas tree up until December 11th. It has no regular green and red. I usually decorate the porch in non Santa cute (no regular green and red at all) I went with polka dot lime green and hot pink
However, this year will be different The front porch is now going from fall themed to spring themed!
The tree doesn’t go up until a week or a few days before Xmas It will come down the second that presents are opened
I am a child abuse / neglect survivor. The alleged biological egg and sperm ingredient humans were the [email protected]“@&@‘ obnoxious decorated house with lights and light up tacky plastic. The news stations would come out and film.
What was life like in that house?
$&”&. Yes it was…..
The inside lights weren’t allowed to be used and the heat was hardly turned on. Food was very limited.
However, they bought new cars every year and bought fancy new clothes.
I had to babysit the children after school that the alleged egg donor was hired to watch but she kept all the money. I was unable to do my homework at home Yet at school teachers tore up homework that I found time to do at school They would have affairs and take me on their dates I was taken to video stores back when there was a adult porn section behind a red curtain I was a little girl left unattended with a very young alleged sibling He would go behind the curtain and sleazy men would try to get me leave with them
Then we would return to that house and he would say we had a few minutes to find something to eat We were timed Then even though it was very early we were told to stay upstairs and we weren’t allowed downstairs for any reason He would then turn the television away from the stairs and play porn tapes He would jerk on his “@&&
People thought I was so fortunate. I rode in nice cars . I lived in the famous Xmas house The house was well decorated
I was dying of toxic shock syndrome. I showed them the information and my temp. They refused to take me to the hospital They decided to take a vacation instead. Then they took me The doctor didn’t think I would live He tried. He had just lost a patient my age with it and she ended wasn’t as far gone as me
They shot guns at each other in the house and threw things I had just patch the bullet holes and clean up the broken items I had to clean the whole house, cook and iron I didn’t get a allowance I babysat and bought every thing I needed from a car . food to clothes
Alleged male sibling and was given a car, clothes and he was violent with towards and tried to rape me
Alleged male bio parent was standing by me when I woke up with my nightgown pulled up. He looked guilty and said he was there to cover me up
My female role model/ mother in my heart corrected them when they told her I was worthless and not worthy or college They refused to sign the form for me to take pre college courses She told them I was worthy!
She is would hire me to help her babysit her grand children knowing my situation She loved me and she will always be my hero
I was violently raped by a classmate before high school graduation Then he offered to be my pimp because he said I was worthless now
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I don’t like Xmas season and now you know why
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