I never thought I would see my childhood friend after our families all moved away…The summer of about 1985 is when Shannon and I met. We were inseperable, shared so many great times, laughed, cried, argued, a real best friend, the ones you had in high school…when you thought you'd grow old together….

Well, I have managed to track down My High School BFF!!!  Her and I chatted for hrs, sharing photos and trying to catch up, Then she just came to pick me up and off we went!! Talked till early morning, laughed @ the trouble we used to cause, caught up on our lives and how much we'd missed being friends. I missed having a BFF to tell IT ALL TO and know in your heart that in hers YOUR secrets are safe. We cried at how our lives have been so similar and much of it filled with the births of our children, the real loves and real losses, sadness & guilt, pain & heartbreak, struggles with addictions, men, family, and with ourselves. I stepping out of my fear of being away from home, LEFT my house! and I have truely had the best weekend I have had in a long, long time..since my Hayley's been gone and my world shattered. I got to really let go, open up, and HAVE FUN!!!!! I have renewed the bond of friendship, One I never thought I'd have again….

My insecurities and fear that I can't be out in the real world because I'm an addict in recovery and I stay in my comfort zine which keeps me safe and sober, have gotten a little smaller because I made it out into "the world beyond my front door"…I have conquered a small war inside my head. My demons are fewer and my days are brighter now that I have my BFF back in my life….

I've been blessed this weekend and I hope you one day find

your long, lost BFF!