PINK ~ "Try"

Ever wonder bout what he's doin?

How it all turned to lies?

Sometimes I think that it's better

To never ask why.

Where there is desire there is going to be a flame

Where there is a flame someone's bound to get burned

Butjust becauseit burns

Doesn't mean you're gonna die

You gotta get up and try, try try

You gotta get up and try, try, try.

Funny how the heart can be decieving

More than just a couple times

Why do we fall in love so easy,

Even when it's not right?

Where there is desire there is gonna be a flame

Where there is a flame someone's bound to get burned

But just because it burns doesn't mean you're gonna die

You gotta get up and try, try, try…

You gotta get up and try, try, try!

Ever worried that it might be ruined

And does it make you wanna cry?

When you're out there doing what you're doing

Are you just getting by?

Tell me, are you just getting by, by, by…

Where there is desire there is bound to be a flame

Where there is a flame someone's bound to get burned

But just because it burns doesn't mean you're gonna die

You gotta get up and try, try, try…

You gotta get up and try, try, try

You gotta get up and

Try, try…try.

So why am I writing the lyrics to a love song? Because for me, this song has been what has gotten me through the last 2 weeks. If you look and hear the lyrics in the perspective of being beaten down by life or illness, it takes on a whole new meaning. Especially the part about, " When you're out there doing what you're doing ~ are you just getting by?". The first time I heard this it made me cry like a baby driving home. That's how I felt about my life, about dealing with bipolar disorder and the really bad depressive episodes, about my abilities as a Mom and wife, and holding down a job. It's as if she were talking directly to me ~ telling me to get up again and keep going even though it felt hopeless. So, I started trying to get help this time from my doctor and doing things even though all I wanted to do was lie down in bed and ignore the world going on around me. And it has helped. I'm not in great shape yet, but I AM getting better.

So to those of you ready to give up ~ I say the same. YOU GOTTA GET UP AND TRY!Keep fighting even thoughit seems impossible, keepcrawling forward until you learn to walk again, keep talking even though silence seems like the answer.It's not.We all shouldknow this bynow, but it seems like with every new blow of depression or anxiety or life difficulty we allow ourselves to slip back into it unknowingly. I want you all to know that even if I don't know you personally ~ I CARE. I care if you're getting better, I care if you feel like you're alone and drowning in depression, I care that youneed someone to talk to and share your pain with. So does almost everyone here. Reach out, ask for a friend…I'll never turn you down or give up on you.

Remember that you're beautiful despite your scars, your battle, your fears and your pain. You DESERVEto be loved and to have people that care about you ~ you just have to believe that yourself.

I'm signing off for now; I havehomework to do with my son and then a therapy appointment to go to. But I am thinking of you; those of you that feel completely lost and buried, never to be saved or found again; those of you that feel like you're pointlesslygoing through the motionsof life and are wonderingif it's worth it to continue. It is.

All my love to Dtribe and hugs to all who need them.

love ~Key