hmmn…frustrating day today. started off abit flat and i’ve gradually got more and  more grumpy. i’m sooo sick of being treated like a child by my parents. if i told them this s how i felt they’d deny it and then go completely to the extreme in the other direction so thought maybe its best to have a little vent here instead – try and get it out to stop it going round and round and round in my head! for a long long time i thought it was my own fault – maybe i was immature, acted like a kid blah-de-blah-de-blah but after lots of sessions with staff nurse on the subject and him assuring me i’m not immature at all,  and now seeing things in a slightly different perspective having recovered some self-esteem, i can see that it really isnt me – its them. whether its because i’m an only child or our home life when i was little made focusing everything on me and my life easier for them than for them to address what was going on for themselves i’m not sure… but the outcome is the same – they just fail to treat me like an adult. i think i am getting there slowly by keeping putting my footdown and calmly challenging them on things but its just soooo frustrating. why do they find it so hard to accept that i am just as entitled to opinions on them and the world as they are on me?! and they certainly dont hold back in letting me know if i’m doing something they would rather i did differently or have said something they feel is out of line – but all the time telling me it’s my life and i do what i want with it of course!! *roll eyes* i know everyone has these kinds of irritations with parents and family but today its just really got to me. i’m sure that as soon as people in my life start seeing me pick up a little they assume that i’m more or less completely better so can just pile everything up on me again – which i can see is a positive in that i am getting better everyday  🙂 but i wish they could just back off a little so i can really get past the same stage of recovery this time!  wish i didnt get so frustrated… always make my mood dip abit 🙁 it’s right up there at the top of things that knock my mood down a notch – i’m never too good at doing the whole accept it as it is and just get on with it thing lol. have to find answers all the time – which isn’t realistic or healthy and i sooo need to work on it and reign in abit.  i didnt find yesterdays session with staff nurse as helpful as usual either – it just gave me a whole new batch of things to wrap my head around so i guess thats probably not helping either. dont mean to be a misery guts as things are defo on the upward route now – got things to look forward to and hopefully some exiting new adventures in the pipeline. just feeling abit monged out this eve – going to work on it though and try and get abit of a more positive friday feeling on the go! woo woo for dt to vent on! happy friday to everyone xxx