I don't even really know where to begin. I feel so out of control and its driving me mad. I also feel like a complete fraud being on here as I haven't been diagnosed as job positive yet (I am still awaiting my results) I just need to get this off my chest and I can't tell anyone.So I have hpv (genital warts) I got these about 4 months ago. I looked it up on the internet and kind off self diagnosed myself, so stupidly I left it. I just didn't want to accept that I had a std. Well a few weeks ago I just got a sire and it has never gone away. It feels like there's something stuck on the left side of my throat that I just can't budge. I finally plucked up the courage to go to the clinic today. After they saw the warts they asked me about my general health and I mentioned my throat. They suggested getting a hiv test as apparently sore throats are main symptom of hiv! Having warts show a weakness in my immune system. So I had the blood test and was told I would be contacted in a few days. I was also warned to prepare myself for the results and sent home scared and confused. I was given no real information yet I have so many questions. Apart from the bad throart I have no other symptoms and feel fine!! I know nothing about hiv. I have been so stupid to put myself in this situation. I'm so scared of the results if I am positive how will I tell my friends and family. How can I ever do any of the things I want like fall in love, get married, be a mum?!?! I don't think I have ever felt so sick with worry…..