Okay….here we go again…

I'm back out in the dating scene after 3 years after being diagnosed with HIV, meaning I now have a profile on Senior People Meet.com and I need some advice. I'm really already getting disappointed, frustrated, and wondering why I even bothered since I don't know when the best time would be to tell the person I meet that I am HIV pos and I need some advice from my fellow tribers in here. When and if I meet someone that I think would be a good match for me and my son (keep in mind that I am raising my 3-year-old son on my own), when is a good time to tell that person that I have HIV, up front on first meeting or after I get to know them before any intimacy happens? On one hand, I would at least like to meet that person in person and let them get to know me as a person and then if something came out of it, then tell them, and then on the other hand, I feel that I would be faced with rejection if I tell that person up front and he wants nothing further to do with me because of that. I have never felt so alone since being diagnosed with HIV and now moreso than ever. I know I only have myself to blame for getting HIV in the 1 mistake I made in choosing to sleep with someone without protection and didn't know my underlying fate would be HIV and what I feel as a death sentence for me, but it sure is depressing knowing that I have to be by myself for the rest of my life or feel rejected, so why do I even try bothering with the dating scene again?

Any advice out there would be really helpful!