These will be the longest 276 days if I keep a countdown going..but I'm just too anxious. I will be leaving for Melbourne, Australia approx. July 10 2011! Studying abroad may be my saving grace, in fact i am almost positive it is. Although, I have a huge fear hovering over me about studying abroad. I'm terrified my life in Australia will be fulfilling, I'll discover myself again, and climb out of the hole I've been hiding in. You are probably wondering why I am terrified by those things, considering that is what I need. Well, what is going to happen when I have to leave Australia and return back to where I am now in my life of being lonely? I'm scared I will sink further into my depression more than ever after i return and I don't know how to prevent it. I have a feeling I'm not going to want to leave the land of OZ.
Also, my dad is visiting me in Australia at the end of my semester there. He will be there for 3 weeks, 2 1/2 of which I'll be done with school and stay in the hotel with him and we will fly back together. He used to live in Australia so he is absolutely thrilled to be going back to visit. Funny thing is, he even keeps telling me I won't want to come back. I believe him. This also means I will be staying a full 5 months now! Yikes! I'll arrive in July and leave in December. I was constantly wishing I could stay longer than 4 months…guess you really should be careful what you wish for. I'm actually excited to be staying that long, it is just kind of crazy to think that I'll be in another country for that long away from my..uh..sad.. life here. Truth is, I'm not leaving much behind.