I just got a call from my roommate who told me i had to get rid of my cats becuase they are not allowed to stayin the apt anymore. I'm so fucking sick of all this shit. I've been crying allo day and the only reason i have to get rid of them is b/c im no longer on the lease and living with my current rooommate for the month of dec until i move to jacksonville. since im not on the lease and the maintence man , that fucking cold heartless fuck job of a man , found ONE stain from when one of my cats puked, he went and told the landlord and now there is no neggotiation in the matter. I have to get rid of them b/c of one fucking puke stain that can easily be cleaned up. I know and my roommate knows that b/c ive cleaned up plenty with this stuff called "awesome" it takes it right up without a trace. BUT he found one i never got to. Becuase of him and his selfish worry that hell have to take up the carpet again, I have to get rid of my cats. Not only that but i have to get rid of them in less than 2 days. I am so incredibaly distrought, i love my cats like kids…nobody seems to understand thjat its not like giving up a fucking toy you can replace and theyre just as attatched to me. They cuddle up to me and play with me and all around get close to me on a constant basis. They have given me so much comfort through so much , especially when i lost my brother and now the fucking selfish prick from hell maintence man is worried about such a smallfucking thing and i have to give them up for it. We had a deal and my roommate was fine with it. If anything happened with the cats, id pay for any damages and nothing woudl have happened except puke and thats EASILY fixed what i said above, always fucking has been. I feel so much anger toward this prick i want to smear cat puke all over his door and car. Becuase of him i lose two living things that i love most in this world.
i dont care if this sounds psycho to some of you , to some of you giving up a cat is like giving up a toy…i cant replace cats like that. They are living loving and caring creatures. Theymay not feel the same things we do but they do feel loss to an extent. They will miserable in the humaine society, scared and miserable and there will be nothing i can do about it and no way of knowing who will take them. I dont even think the boy will be taken, kato is a mean resentful bastard a lot and hisses at everyone but me. I got him as a baby and im sure he was severely abused b/c he hid under a chair and hissed at mewhen i went to go meet him. No one wants that…i am of very few that want to be "the savior" to a mean spirited kitty. Most people want the cuddly playful type. He is neither. Noone will take him and he will be put to sleep and i cant live with myself for that …i cant live with not knowing what will happen to them. Lilly will be snatched up but who knows who she will be with and how they treat her. I am so beside myself , im done crying and now im pissed and imi trying to exhaust options here, finding temporary stay kennels and such. I have no one to leave them with. A friend offered to hold them for me , but how do you ship cats and then ship them back so easily ??
My mothers rols in all of this cruel, she feels that i should "grow up" and take it as a learning lesson and uses things against me such as when shed help pay for certain things, like the pet deposit for my apt. She said she loset her pet and it was very hard for her and i need to the same. Fuck that , why do i have to suffer just b/c she did and she had more time to find a decent place for her cats. she had ONE cat that she didnt have to split up from another. She was younger and she kjnew where it was going. i am older i have no idea where they will go and that kills me inside.
Many of you will find this petty but some of you will understand where im coming from and i know that how i feel is not rediculous or immature. It is like losing a person to me, losing something very close and comforting, something you care about so much and dont want anything to happen to. i am going to exhaust all my options even if if takes up all my savings. I am fed up with humanity and this is the last fucking thing i need. Merry fucking xmas to me.