So, I am going on a trip in October and I don't want to go.

Well, no, I do want to go and see my niece and nephew, but I don't want to get on a crowded bus for 16 hours. I hate buses, but I would do anything for my niece and nephew and they want me to come and visit them. I am anxious about the trip and being in an entirely new place for two weeks, but it's something I'm going to have to get over.

I've been shopping for a dog. Yep, a dog. My counselor suggested getting a dog to take for walks and take to parks and such, as it will be a conversation starter and keep me company, in a way. So, for the first time in my life I'm looking to buy a dog and dogs are not cheap. The cheapiest dog I've seen was 100 dollars from the shelter. I did see a dog in the paper for 30 dollars, but by the time I called someone else had called and was going to pick the dog up that evening. I had a dog before, but we had to give her away because we were moving into apartments. I miss her, but I've gotten over it.

I went to my counselor Friday. Oh, she gets on my nerves sometimes. She tells me I need to get my driver's lisence, which I am fully aware of. I need it because I am 19 and I do have places I need and want to go and can't alway get a ride. Only thing, I HATE going to the DMV. It's too many people and they're waiting and then you have to wait and I don't know if I'll be able to take it. Then, there's the actual driving test. I'll have to be in the car with someone I don't know at all and focus only on driving and what's going on in the street. Difficult, but doable. And I need to do it. How will I ever get pulled over for a DUI if I can't drive? Not that I really want to, but it would be funny … after the fact.

My counselor also wants me to go places and just walk around. I hate doing that because I feel completely ackward doing it. I mean, I'm not going into the store to do anything, I'm just walking around to get more comfortable with being places alone for long periods of time. If I go into a store, I like to have a reason. Like go in, get milk and bread, pay, then leave. I'm not the kind of person who, even though they have exactly what they needed, still walks around the store checking out prices and what's new in the store. I can see that in a clothing or shoe store, but not the grocery store. Who does that? If if anyone does, I don't mean to offend, but I don't do it so I'll never get why someone else does.

Anyway, I've got to go cook dinner. I'm thinking shrimp alfredo, but I'm sure no one else will want it.

R_Ws