In a place where I feel like I may not lose my mind…at least for the next 5 minutes but I will take whatever I can get at this point! Just returned from a session with my counselor feeling like maybe I am really not insane or nuts maybe it is them & they just can't admit it to themselves!!!! Not expecting it to last to long my parents & sister will be home soon & they hate seeing me happy it seems…whenever they see me doing okay they instantly start a fight or something to undo all the hard work I have just done :/. But this time I am resolved to hold my ground while at the same time Not put up with abuse if that means walking away so be it. I think I deserve a few hours of okayness after all the crap they have put me through. If it wasn't for her I doubt I would/could have held on this long without encouragement,sympathy,help, and just genuine interest in my well being!!! How does it get to the point that a parent can no longere express love to their own flesh & flood? It has been years since I have been given an I Love U from them & my siblings always get in every time they leave the house. I have already heard they must love u deep down way to many times so don't feel the need to say it to me agian…thanks! Seriously I barely care anymore it is just the way it is gonna be & the sooner I except it the better for myself. I have resolved that the best revenge so to speak is breaking the pattern & making it stop with them I will not use & abuse my children if I ever have any the way they did!!!!!!