Just when I thought I was getting things at least relatively on an even keel….days like today happen. I just am feeling like a complete waste of space, of skin, of time…the whole nine yards. I know a lot of it is the depression…and I know a lot of it is concern for my gf and the fact that her health is deteriorating…and not really understanding what's happening with her. I guess a lot of my concern for her ends up turning into misplaced caution. I know I need to let her do what she can, but yet I catch myself trying to do everything because I know she's having problems physically. Unfortunately, when I do that…then it turns out to be a huge fight, because I smother her, I guess. But at the same time, if I express to her that I just don't understand how her disease works (she has ms), she gets angry and just tells me I have to just deal. She's given me lots of websites to look at, which I've done, but unfortunately for me…I'm a very sequential person and her disease is anything but. She keeps telling me I'm pushing her away….but I don't know what I'm doing for one and for two…I don't know what to change in my behavior. I love her and it breaks my heart that all we do lately is fight….but I don't know what's happening to our relationship. I don't want to lose her….I have no one and nothing. That might sound melodramatic, but that's how I feel. I hate this feeling of no control….and literally being swallowed by my environment….but I feel like I"m running on empty to keep fighting. I know I need help….but I have no idea where to turn….
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Difficulties with GD + other problems
AloneForever, , Depression, Anger, Anxiety, Autism, Lesbian, Gay, LGBTQ, PTSD, Social Anxiety, 0
It's hard leaving the house in the gender/ body you are are in.You feel like you have to plan...
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This fears got a hold on me
punk, , Depression, Anxiety, Grief, Sleep Disorders, 0
The light's still in our eyes We're leaving this whole fairground behind It's a dream that's going cold The...
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Stuck + Lonely
dollface, , Depression, Addiction, Anxiety, Career, Domestic Abuse, OCD, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, 2
So…. I guess there's two things I want to… rant about I guess. This could be a long blog....
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NAMI WALKS
jeneva5, , Depression, 0
**Just one more week until the walk**http://namiwalks.nami.org/JenScintoPlease visit my personal web page for NAMIWalks…Changing Minds One Step at a...
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Day 4
Ladybug23, , Depression, Anxiety, Depression, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, Stress, 0
October 9th 2010 Day 4 off of work and on meds for thryoid and depression. umm.. the Cipralex are...
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Why I joined this tribe.
akalex, , Depression, Career, Child, Depression, Divorce, Suicide, Weight Loss, 0
I am depressed. There, I had to be able to type it and read it to take hold of...
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THANK YOU ALL
chunckywannabcurvy, , Depression, Relationships, Weight Loss, 1
I am definitely mellow and feeling very content at the moment. I am all pampered out and even though...
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Friendships/relationships
Steph_jn, , Depression, Anxiety, Questions, Relationships, Therapist, Weight Loss, 2
I never know what to do about friends and relationships. Is it normal for a friend to not text...
Hi dear friend -I am just popping in to say, I hope you are well and my thoughts are with you- I hope things work out for you Bless you Vic