Who am I? I have no clue….have you ever felt like you sit in a room and everyone moves and talks around you like you aren't there? I feel like that, nothing but another fixture in the room. While I was in the hospital they told me I am of worth, I am a person of quality I just need to figure it out….I don't know how….I take care of my grandkids everyday, my parents are in such poor health I'm to the point where I dread getting that phone call, seems my kids don't call unless they want something from me and then I don't hear how are you, what are you doing? If it wasn't for my little grandsons and their perfect little smiles of love and the hugs and kisses and the I love you's I get from them I wouldn't be here, they are what I hang onto in my life. Maybe they define who I am? I've lost myself so how do I find myself? Do I depend on those little angels instead of them depending on me? Can I really be a good grandma they will remember all their life? I have no one to talk to except the few friends I made in chat but I don't want to always burden them with my problems when I don't have any answers and they don't know what to say….I go to a therapist and I hear what do you think you should do? Hell that's why I'm there to get some answers on how to find out what I should do!! Like I said I'm lost with only my two little grandsons to keep me going but without knowing who I am how can I be any good to them? If you are reading this thank you for listening…..
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I hate myself…whats new?
mooncv, , Depression, Anger, Anxiety, Depression, Grief, Sleep Disorders, Therapist, 0
I’ve had another outburst. You know how the thoughts never leave your mind? How they just get quieter when...
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Realization
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I just finished watching an episode of Jo Frost’s show (Supernanny lady). She tried to talk with the family...
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31st May 2009
OrchidX, , Depression, Medication, Relationships, 0
It’s been awhile since I last posted a blog here and I’ve been meaning to write here again for...
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Weakness
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This blog is going to be a little more negative than I would like it to be and I...
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Sick of this
rainbowdash724, , Depression, Relationships, 3
I'm so sick of this. A stupid dance at school a few weeks ago happened. My group of so...
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I feel violated
dr_fruikenstein, , Depression, Relationships, Sex Therapy, Stress, 6
I haven’t been able to blog in a while because everytime I try to blog about something, this issue...
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Even she can't save me now.
depressednstressed, , Depression, Anxiety, Depression, Relationships, Suicide, Therapist, 0
My sister- the most supportive person in my life- has been here this weekend and I have cut twice...
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Happy
melwho, , Depression, Anger, Depression, Grief, 0
(I like to write poems, they help me understand what I am feeling, remember that there are days when...