i can't do life, but no one really cares.I need people in my life but no one wants to be there, or even interact with me. I'm at the foot of the wall of hate all the time. People expect you to smile but i physically don't even know how. They're selfish and want things to take from you before they leave you and complain when they don't get it. I just can't connect with people at all which makes me terrified of approaching them. They think they will like me but they don't. They hate me. Though it's not like i've ever really known how to try but when i do i only ever fail. No one wants to be around me, i'm the last person anyone wants to be around. I'm not like that though with anyone. Those are things i would never event hink of doing to anyone, but maybe if i was them and making friends came so easy to me i wouldn't know the pain someone would feel if every entire person eventually rejected them. Most people don't beilive social pain/ inabilityexists. Well go ahead and live your ignorant lives but don't pretend to like me in the future when i have something you want. I won't let anyone strip anything of me anymore and then leave me. I hate people so much. Sometimes i think it owuld be easier if i was a monkey or something and all i had to do was climb trees and collect food. Everyone treats eachother so disgustingly and i can't take my emotions being messed with or lied to, i don't even understand it but it's also because i can't try anyway. I can't leave my rooma nd make friends, i don't even know how. I only get about 2 chances a year and this is all that happens. And i'm left with HATE.