Well I haven't been here in forever and now I sooo need to be. I had some BIG disappointments in the last year that I can't seem to recover from. I now feel as if I am on a hopeless downward spiral. I only leave my bed when I absolutly have to. I sleep 14 to 16 hours a day and am on the computer when I'm up. I don't do anything I once enjoyed anymore. If it involves effort I can't be bothered! I am a little better on the weekends w/ my husband around. I leave the house w/ him and it's ok then. During the week if one of my 2 pt jobs call I'll work and if my daughter needs me I'll move otherwise I'm tring to sleep. I would rather dream of what could have been than is. I'm not suicidal but I see little to no hope that things can ever be happy or good again. I have only proved by tring that I am a complete failure again. The OCD is coming back stronger and stonger each day. I need to clean but I try to do only small parts as I see the signs of loosing myself. Right now my nephew is staying w/ us and it's good and bad. I would be cleaning and the house would look better if I was alone but I probably couldn't stop if I started. I am so pathetic to be so lazy and avoid cleaning just cause I'm unsure. I wish I could make things "normal". I start w/ a new therapist Wednesday, not sure if I should even bother it's only going to help for 6 weeks. I have no insurance so I can have 6 free sessions, nice but what's the point? Mabye I'll just take another nap…
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Do people ever ask you…
mattbenjamin50, , OCD, Anxiety, Career, Depression, OCD, 0
Do people ever ask you what you're worried about? With many of the difficulties OCD can bring to a...
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I worry about everything, urgh! I need to figure out who to turn to … hate using money, but I think it maybe the case!
Misconceptions, , OCD, Anxiety, Career, Relationships, Self Esteem, Stress, 1
I worry about everything. There's not a time when I don't worry. (Aside from when I'm intoxiated and I...
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Struggling.
treasureL, , OCD, Anger, Anxiety, Depression, OCD, 4
Having OCD, some days, is just hard. Seeing as how I literally just recovered from bawling my eyes out...
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Some thoughtful jokes to share
Jc110488, , OCD, Anxiety, 1
here are a few laughs that i wanted to share.. hope you guys like what you read A man...
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My OCD Journey
LeonardA, , OCD, Child, Depression, Hoarding, Medication, OCD, Relationships, Religion, Therapy, 0
This is rather long. It is a letter I wrote my parents when they were both still living. ...
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Got me thinking..
Hope3, , OCD, Anxiety, Child, OCD, Weight Loss, 6
So, I had written a blog entry this morning about a friendship I have. I submitted it, but ended...
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Just stuff
xray81, , OCD, 2
Well My weekend was nothing but crazy… It started Friday when I decided to go to Homer, at 8:30...
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God and ocd
tryingpatience, , OCD, OCD, Religion, 2
First off I’m a Pastor’s wife. For so long now , before I found out I had ocd, I...
Please don't give up hope. There is always hope. There has to be.